stupid love feeling

letters IX

21:21, Feb 20, 2015
Kaise kaise khyalon mein jiti hun mein, Kaisi bevakuf hun main.
Pata ni strong hote hue b apne apko hurt karne k liye age rehti hun. Bt i know wat ma destiny is, u ain't belong anywhere.
Suru se ni the, na ho, na hoge.
Jald se jald Mujhe apne Zehan mein utarna hoga. I need to b more strong move ahead.
Have to leave all this imaginary useless thought.
This is ma last mail.
Now nothing from ma side for u.
Ajkal mein hi tumhe bata b dungi, pls isk baad need not to msg me or call, please leave me alone.
Bye

00:03, Feb 21, 2015
Pata ni Kyun fir ek baar mere saath aisa kyun hua, pata ni main apne per pe khud hi Kyun kulhadi marti hun.

Kyun tumhare pass mere que ka Ans ni hota tha, Kyun meri batien tumhe samajh ni ati thi, Mujhe ye samajhne mein pata ni Kyun 2 saal lag gae. Kyun apne apko 2 saal tak andhere mein rakha pata ni

14:50, Feb 25, 2015
Tumse janna tha k, hai ya thi koi Tumhari life mein ya nai mere alawa?

Tum jo b bologe wahi sach maan k jiungi zindgi bhar.

N Mujhe Sachi mein bahut bura laga Maine hmare pyaar ko gali di.

Bt zaroori tha tumhe mujhse durr karne k liye, Mujhe hi pata hai ye do din kaise nikale hain mere. Bt m free now.

21:29, Apr 12, 2015

Dear sorry main tum se baat ni kar paungi na hi face kar sakti hun. Tumse narazgi, gussa, tumhe na samajh pana ye sab itna zayda ho gaya k in sab ka indirect affect Tum p shaq N wo shaq gehrata hi gaya.
In sab ki wajah se main itna selfish ho gai k main kab badalti chali gai pata hi ni chala.

Itna hi ni Maine is shaq ki wajah se shelza k ek frnd ko req b Bhej di N Usse baat b ki. Bt 3 chat k baad guilt andar hi andar khane laga. So I told him truth k Maine use frnd req Shelza N tumhare bare mein janne k liye ki thi.

N Uske through ek Sachai samne ayi k Maine to tumse kabi pyar kiya hi ni. Agar hota to Mujhe tum p trust hota.

Is sab k baad ek baar fir se apne aap se nafrat ho gae thi, Jaise k pata ni kitna Bada sin kar diya Maine. Aj church mein b confession kia but not feeling relieved. So tumhe bata diya.

Main na hi tumse baat Karne layak hun na hi tumse nazrein milane k. I don't want to b a psycho.

Abhi andhere se bahar ayi hun.
Sorry.