stupid love feeling

Today 7th jan

A page of one's diary.

I've never thought of writing ma feelings in a diary. But I've to. It isn't till i met ma luv. Being gettin into luv relation is ain't an easy task. I mean starting a relation without knowing each other is not ok. Actually i'd told ma luv to b frnd first, understand each others like dislike, then to move forward. But ma luv ain't get ready for that.
I've denied many proposals as i just don't want to share ma time,  I've told same to him, as I've first denied his proposal. But as u know ma diary, people got blind n deaf when they r in love. So he said this relation will not change anything in ma life.

Before mine being saying yes to d relation, ma luv used to praise me which i know is fake, i don't know y i fell for him( again luv is blind n deaf).
From starting i knew all his tricks n pleases r to convince me to say yes.  But still i allowed him to do so,  otherwise i do had stop talking,  start avoiding, if anyone else had done so. .
I know I'm not so smart. I do understand people's behaviour ( sometimes not), understand what's in there mind, but not been able to react properly,  or show ma emotions according to situation (which is largest weekness of mine). Actually i wont like to show ma emotions to others, but instead i want dem to understand situation y I'm doin something n wat I'm doin (which is not possible).
Hope someday, someone will understand me. Hope I'll get someday.

Bye
Goodnight diary.