MiniZerk - You Could Follow Your Heart

Chapter 9

The winter went by mostly without a hitch. Within time Simon went back to posting videos on his regular schedule. Madden helped to play a massive part in his recovery; never neglecting to tell Simon how good he looked or how much he loved him. By March, Madden's birthday month, Simon was comfortable enough to start giving him blowjobs again, but still had a strict rule against insertion. In that period he even tried topping, but neither of them found it to be the same.

Being on good terms with Josh again was another massive factor. Their relationship got a little more awkward than what it had been, but it was evident that Josh was trying to be casual and make things work out again. He never apologized, but Simon couldn't really ask him for that; it meant enough to him that they were speaking again.

And the fans were incredibly supportive of Simon. There was some backlash, and he expected that much, but for the most part everyone was being very kind. He was actually gaining subscribers (mostly females who thought him coming out was brave and admirable, but hey, it's support all the same). He never fully opened up about all his experiences, but he did mention in passing that he was seeing someone, and wouldn't give out any names. Fans speculated, like most do, but Simon didn't mind.

His life was on the right track for once, and he truly couldn't have been happier.

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It took a very short amount of time for things to go awry again.

In April, Simon took a ride over to Madden's house to spend the night. In his mind he was plotting it out, having decided that it would be the night where they try to have sex again. Upon his arrival, he noticed an unfamiliar car parked in the driveway. He thought nothing of it considering he had yet to meet many of his boyfriend's friends.

He parked behind said car, and took out his spare key to unlock the door. He couldn't hear the TV, so he figured they had to be upstairs. He jogged up, and without knocking, flung the door open.

"Hey, Madden, I..."

A curvy blonde girl with hair down to her ass was cradled on Madden, her glossy pink lips wrapped around his cock and a well manicured hand was stroking the base. She didn't so much as stop even as Madden locked eyes with Simon, looking like a deer caught in headlights. He shoved the girl off, sending her falling to the ground as he scrambled off the bed to try and catch Simon, who was already leaving the room, heading down the stairs.

"Please, baby," he cooed, trying to grab Simon by the arm. When he succeeded in this endeavor, Simon instantly yanked away. "It's not what you think, I swear."

Simon scoffed loudly, shoving Madden away from him. "Then why don't you fucking enlighten me, huh?"

Madden bit his lip before speaking slowly. "I was lonely and...and you wouldn't do anything. What was I supposed to do, Simon?"

"What?!" Simon exclaimed, and without warning, angry tears pulsed out of his eyes and down his lips; salty and bitter. "I was fucking raped . How long has this been going on?"

"...about a month now," said Madden, his eyes lidded and heavy. There was plenty of guilt hidden in those beautiful chocolate eyes that Simon used to love so dearly. "I don't get it, Simon. You were letting Josh fuck you while he was dating Freya. What's the big deal?"

Simon fell silent after that, confused and scared of his own feelings, and especially when he realized that there was truth to what Madden was saying. It was hardly any different...right? Maybe Simon was just being hypocritical...

... right ?