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thinking

Ara's POV

I am staring at my phone, particularly on the date today... it's been 2 days since Mika left without a trace. I tried calling Cammie her bestfriend to find out where she could have been, what she does and if she is ok but Cammie acts like she is also clueless... 

My bestfriend Kim has been teasing me since I haven't been in my element since she left... I tried to go by my day normally but the heck thinking about where she went stresses me ... even the coaches has been bugging me to focus on what I am doing during trainings... I wanted to find a way to get in touch with her but I don't want to appear clingy... I know... I know... I know... 

I'm acting so weird but you see, we enjoy each other's company and it's not like you meet someone whom you are so comfortable with being yourself everyday... so I hope that you can also get what i am feeling right now...

Days went by with no messages and calls coming from Mika... and i am starting to lose hope... i am starting to think that what we have or i mean what i thought we had was just a misunderstanding... maybe she just treated me as one of her friends or maybe just a trainer whom she needed for the shoot... i guess i need to stop... i need to stop thinking of her and all the possibilities that we could be together...

i think it is time to move on... as i sat down on the field after running for almost an hour... i finally decided that i need to shake it off... i need to stop what i am starting to feel for her... she is already special for me but i guess we couldn't just continue this wonderful relationship that we started to build.... i am just a friend... I've been trying to keep that in my mind for the previous hour,  it pains me but what can i do?... if the girl that i like doesn't want me... i will just need to set my mind and set my focus back to only school and sports....

If ever we meet again, i will always greet her with a sweet smile but at the back of my mind there will always be a question...

What could have been?

I lay on the field and stared at the sky. We've had good times and i would never want that to end.. but where are you? Did i do anything wrong? Am I annoying? It sucks when you left  without a clue

I bid goodbye to my feelings for Mika.

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