Chris & Eva Fanfiction

Part 13 - Eva's POV

[1 week later]

I zip up my bag after finishing my checklist of things to bring to the cabin.
Jonas invited me and whomever I wanted to bring to come up for the weekend for a bonfire and party. I'm not sure who is coming but I asked Noora to come along with the rest of the girls because she's visiting and William is as well.

"Eva!" I hear Noora call. I sling my bag over my shoulder and grab my blanket and pillow and close the door behind me.

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3 hours later

"Yay we're here!" Vilde says excitedly, she won't shut up about this being the best weekend ever and all she's hoping for is to get laid.

Noora parks the car and I get out, the girls follow behind me.

Jonas and his girlfriend are at the front door and he smiles and I hug him.

"Thanks for inviting us." I smile and he nods and smiles back and greets the rest of the girls.

I walk in, remember the last time I was here when we were still dating. It feels like ages ago.

I see William is here along with some of the other Penetrator boys.

I walk upstairs and Noora follows me up. The second floor of the cabin has 3 rooms and they each have 4 bunk beds.

We walk in and I set my stuff down on the bottom one and Noora takes the top. Vilde and Chris join us and they take the others. Sana had no interest in coming this weekend so she didn't tag along.

"This is gonna be a really fun weekend!" Chris says plopping down on the bed next to Vilde.

"I think so too, Eva this will be good for you. You need some cheering up." Noora says.

In the past week since I slept over Christoffer's we haven't seen each other much. I don't want to think he's ignoring me but it feels like it and I'm starting to think I was wrong to trust him. Maybe he wasn't different.

"I'll be right back, I'm gonna go to the bathroom and then we can go downstairs and see everyone and what the plan is." I say, I walk out of the room and down the hall.

A door opens and someone comes out and bumps into me. It's Chris.

"Oh, I'm sorr-" He says before stopping and I look at him and he knows I'm pissed. I push past him and walk into the bathroom locking the door behind me.

"Eva, please open the door I know you're pissed off but I can explain." He says and I see the handle jiggle.

I sit against the door in silence. I don't want to believe that he's just the douche I thought he was. But he hasn't spoken to be since that night, it just seems like he got what he wanted.

"Just leave me alone, alright?" I say and push my the back of my head against the door.

After a few minutes he must have left and I get up and unlock the door.

I open the door and check to see if he's out there but he isn't. I walk out and in a matter of seconds I'm pulled into the room next to the bathroom.

"What the fuck!" I yell and I see it's Chris pulling me in the room. He shuts the door behind him and puts his back to hit and I'm standing in front of him avoiding eye contact.

"Please, just look at me. It's not what you think." He says and puts his hand under my chin and gently turns it toward him.

I look at him and I feel my eyes stinging. I hate myself for caring about him as much as I do, and I realize how much I care now that he's been ignoring me.

"Eva, I haven't been ignoring you, and I know that's what you think this is but it's not. It's not that simple." He saga looking right at me.

"It's not that simple? Do you know how cliché you sound right now? What do you mean it's not that simple? You've been shutting me out for a week now. What? Did you get what you wanted out of me? Or was it that you didn't get enough? What is it Chris? Enlighten me on how it's not that simple." I say pushing his hand away.

"It might sound stupid to you Eva, but I haven't been talking to you because I don't want to fuck this up. I don't want to do something that's going to hurt you because that's what I've done in the past. I fuck things up, that's kind of my specialty. I really fucking care about you and it terrifies me because I don't know what to do. I'm not good enough for you, I want to be. But I'm not. I want this, I want it so fucking bad you have no idea." He says to me.

I don't even know how to respond. He's ignoring me because he doesn't want to hurt me? That does hurt me. I also don't know what to think about what he just said. He's not good enough for me? He doesn't get to decide what's good enough for me.

"Chris, you don't get to decide what's good for me. I decide it. When you ignore me for a week and shut me out, it hurts me. It makes me feel like you don't give a shit. It makes me think all sorts of things because let's face it, you don't commit very well now do you?" I glare at him and he actually looks hurt by that comment.
I step closer to him, angry. "I want this Chris, I want it and you want it so I don't see the problem here. Stop acting like this is all about you and like I can't handle it because I can. I want you." I say. I can smell his cologne and the space between us is getting smaller.

"You're sexy when you're pissed." He grins. I shove him lightly and roll my eyes taking a step back.

He stops me and pulls me back.

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to hurt you. I was trying to do the opposite. I'm stupid, I'm not good at this. I'm a dick and I'm sorry." He says and pulls me in hugging me.

I wrap my arms around his waist and we sit in silence for a few moments. I sigh and he does too.

"You can't just shut me out whenever you want. That doesn't help us. I want this to work." I say pull back a little so I can look up at him.

He nods, "I know, I'm sorry. I'm trying." He leans forward and kisses me forehead.

"Are we okay?" He asks.

I nod, "Yeah, we're okay."

"Alright, let's get out there. They're probably wondering where we've been this whole time." He winks.

"Oh, shut up. You wish." I say and he turns the doorknob and opens the door.

"Well my wish will come true soon enough." He grins at me and I shake my head and walk out the door as he follows behind me.

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