Chris & Eva Fanfiction

Part 11 - Eva's POV

11:37 pm

Chris pulls me closer and I feel his hot breath against my neck. I run my hands through his hair and he puts his lips on mine.

As much as I want this to go further, it's not the time.

I pull away lightly, "I think that's a good stopping point." I say trying to catch my breath.

Chris nods in agreement and I can tell he's also out of breath.

"I've been waiting for that since then night of the Halloween party." He grins at me.

I don't know where this will go, but I feel like he means what he said. That this is different to him, because it feels different to me.

"Thank you for tonight." I say and he puts his arm around me and pulls me closer.

I look up at him, and this just seems like those cliché times where you ask each other questions so I decide to go for it.

"Tell me something I don't know about you. I wanna know more about Chris, not 'Penetrator Chris.' " I say.

He looks out to the water, I can see his mind working.

"Well what do you want to know specifically?" He looks back at me.

"I don't know... How about, what made you wanna be a part of the Penetrators?" I say.

"Hmm, I joined that group because of William. He's basically my brother and I've always looked up to him. He started getting into that type of lifestyle and he sorta brought me into it I guess. I was in a hard place because of my mom, we were young and stupid. It started out being for fun, looking 'cool', but then hooking up with girls... it became more of a coping thing. It helped me feel something when there was nothing."

I can hear the pain in his voice whenever he talks about his mom. It breaks my heart into a thousand pieces.

"What about you? Any sob stories like mine?" He winks at me and pulls me closer.

"I don't know... I mean as you've pointed out before and many others I get pretty messy at parties. My mom was an alcoholic when I was a kid so I kind of grew up with that way of life being acceptable. My dad left her when I was young so I don't remember much about him, and don't care to. It's not really an excuse for me to get so drunk but... I've dealt with depression and things like that so, girls are your coping mechanism and alcohol and partying is mine."

He looks at me concerned, "What do you mean about the depression?"

I sigh, "It runs in the family. Shocker. But uh, it got worse in middle school. Before Ingrid nobody wanted to hang out with me because I talked weird, not being from here. My weight was different in middle school, I got bullied for a lot of things. Didn't make my life easier having a fucked up mom. Things got better with Ingrid and then worse when I started seeing Jonas behind her back. I felt like a whore and a terrible friend but it just kind of.. happened. It wasn't my intention to like him, but we just kind of began." I say. "Since I met Vilde and especially Noora though, it's gotten much better. I haven't really had any issues, I mean, it's always there but it doesn't control me. I just like getting drunk sometimes I guess."

I look up at him and I realize that I may have said too much and I don't want him to see me like a mess, like my mother but it's what I am.

"I - I'm a mess, in case you haven't already caught on." I look down at my hands.

He puts his hand on my chin and turns my face up to him.

"Be my mess." He whispers and comes down kissing me again.

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1:07 am

Somehow instead of going home after the date, I end up in Chris' house laying in his bed.

He turns off the light and slides into the bed next to me.

"Am I allowed to touch you this time?" He says sarcastically and laughs. I roll my eyes even thought he can't see it.

I turn around and face him, it's hard to see but I can tell he's grinning at me.

"Do you mean all of this, Chris?" I ask.

"What? Wanting to be with you? Honestly Eva, for once I found something in my life I'm one hundred percent sure about and that's being with you." He says quietly and places his hand on my cheek.

In that moment, my heart skipped a few beats.

I put my hand on his and that's the last thing I remember before sleep pulls me away.

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