BoyxBoy Oneshots

Hanging by a thread

~My work~

This oneshot is/was,kinda, inspired by the song up above =P lol

Sorry if it sucks...lol xDD

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    Our love is barely hanging by a thread. I'm this close to leaving him for good. I just can't take it anymore. It hurts. It really hurts. Everything was fine at first...but then....Hell! I don't even know what happened between us! It was so wonderful and perfect between us..but then around a month ago..it all changed. He started being more distant and ignoring me a lot. I would see him laughing and smiling with his friends,but when I walk over he looks all annoyed and sad.

I just don't understand it. I thought he loved me. I really thought he was my true love...but I guess I was wrong. Sadly.

I was knocked out of my thoughts by a honking of a car horn. I looked out my bedroom window to see Riley,my boyfriend, outside waiting for me. Even though he's been giving me the silent treatment and got to the point where he hasn't said anything to me in days,he still picks me up to take me to school.

'No.' I thought. I wasn't going with him,i'd rather walk to school than be with him. I just can't stand being near him at the moment. I can't risk breaking down in front of him. That'll be terrible.

I walked outside and went right pass his car,proceeding to walk down the road.

"Meeka?!" He called out. 'oh,so now he pays attention to me..' I kept walking,ignoring him completely.

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    Its been about a week since then. Riley still ceased to talk to me much. So,as much as I honestly hate it,today was the day I was ending it with him. I couldn't take the pain of someone I loved ignoring me and treating me like a ghost. It hurt to much to bare.

I was standing outside the schools entrance waiting for Riley to walk out. I told him I had something urgent to tell him. Luckily,he gave in. So now I was waiting for him. I finally saw him walking out. I gave him a fake smile. He didn't even look my way. he didn't even notice me. Instead,he was busy talking to this girl. Laughing.......,smiling......,talking.......,doing all the thing he doesn't do with or at me. I felt tears well (A/N: Is that how its spelled...idk) up in my eyes,threatening to fall. I wouldn't let them....I couldn't.

Once the girl left,after kissing him on the cheek,he noticed me. His smile immediately falling,a look of guilt and sadness etched onto his face. He walked towards me.

"What did you need to tell me..." He said quietly,looking down worriedly. "I wanna be alone...follow me.." I said as emotionless as possible. He nodded.

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    Once we made it to the place I was headed to,some nearby forest,I turned and looked at him. I already had tears welling up in my eyes. "What's wrong?" He asked worriedly. I looked at him dumbly,all of a sudden feeling a wave of rage wash over me.

"Whats wrong...?...WHATS WRONG??!! LIKE YOU DON'T EFFIN KNOW!! YOU JUST ALL OF A SUDDEN START IGNORING ME AND PRACTICALLY TREATING ME LIKE I'M INVISIBLE AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW BAD THAT HURTS ME!!! SOMEONE I LOVE HURTING ME AND TREATING ME LIKE THAT!! I HATE IT!!! I HATE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU! I DON'T WANNA LOSE YOU BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WANT YOU GONE,OUTTA MY LIFE!!! I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! WE'RE THRU,DONE FOR,I CAN'T STAND THE PAIN ANYMORE!" I was full blown sobbing now. I hated this so much. I really did. "Where did it all go wrong?" I whispered.

All of a sudden I heard a strangled sob. Looking up,I saw Riley on his knees crying and screaming out,basically breaking down. It really hurt seeing him like this,but at the same time...he brought this on himself. I don't really understand why he's the one breaking down.

"Please Meeka.....don't leave me...I-I love you t-to much.." He cried out looking up at me. I closed my eyes,trying to keep myself from crying. "If you loved me,you wouldn't be flirting with school sl*ts." I whispered quietly.

He stood up,walking over to me. "I'm so sorry Meeka,I was so scared,I didn't know what to do.." He cried out weakly. "Of what?" I asked. "My parents....I-I heard them talking about how they can't stand gays and stuff...I didn't want them to hate me." He whispered sadly. "But," He continued,looking up at me lovingly. "i love you and need you more then them."

I started to cry.

'What was I thinking? I can't lose him,as much as I kinda hated it,he means to much to me..I love him to much to let him go.'

I kissed him lovingly.

"I love you,too." 

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Well that kinda sucked........                                                                                                                                      (801 words)