Please don't go • e.d

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Where am I?

What happened?

Who are these people?

"Mr. Dolan?! Mr. Dolan can you hear me?! Do you know where you are"

Someone was trying to get attention, but I couldn't open my eyes.

"MR.DOLAN" someone hit my chest with their fist. I sprung upright and took in a gulp of air that I didn't know was missing from my lungs.

A turned my head and saw a paramedic kissing a cross around his neck. A paramedic, why am I in an ambulance? What happened? My mind had a black void.

"Dolan do you know where you are?"

I shook my head.

"You are in an ambulance on the way to the hospital, you were in a car accident, a pretty bad one. Your girlfriend is stable but we need to get her to the ICU" he told me.

A car crash? All of the memories came back in a rush and a jolt of pain ran through my head. The car rolling, filling through the wind shield, Jade. wait Jade...JADE!!

"Where's Jade?? I need to find her!! Is she okay??" I attempted to get out of the gurney I was in but the paramedic held me down by my shoulders.

"Ethan stop or I will have to sedate you!" He yelled at me.

I didn't care. I have to find her. This is my fault. I kept thrashing around until a felt a sudden relaxation wash over me.

"Jade..." I whispered and then darkness took over.

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I opened my eyes slowly. White lights were blinding me until my eyes adjusted and I saw a hospital ceiling.

Jade

I tried to stand up but my arms were restrained to the hospital bed. I struggled more and more until the door to my room opened and a man in a white coat strolled in.

"Let me out" I seethed at him.

"Ethan if we let you out you could hurt yourself more" he said calmly, which just pissed me off more.

"Where is Jade" I hissed at him.

"Well I have to tell you your injur-"

"I don't care about me. Show me Jade" I cut him off.

"Ethan she is in the ICU, she hit her head on a rock at the bottom of the hill you guys rolled down, she has now slipped into a coma." He exclaimed.

No, my baby girl in a coma. This is all my fault no no no.

"Take me to her" I said through gritted teeth.

"Ethan you shouldn't be walking yet-"

"I will take him to her" a nurse strolled into the room and gave the doctor a nod.

"Okay, Ethan Nurse Jackie will take you there" I nodded to him and the nurse helped me out of my bed.

She got a wheel chair and I sat down. She rolled me down the hallway. I hate hospitals, all they do is remind me of death.

We rolled through the ICU* and I heard some patients groaning in pain. I closed my eyes and tried to tune them out.

"Im so sorry baby" I muttered to myself, but meant it for Jade.

We came to a stop in front of a patient door with the number 847. The nurse clicked a button and the door opened by its self. She wheeled me in and their on my bed sat my Jade.

My heart shattered into a million pieces when I saw her laying there. She had tubes running in her arm, around her nose, and a big one down her throat. This is my fault. She could be up and walking if I hadn't taken my eyes off of the road. I reached my hand out and put it on top of hers, I gave it a gently squeeze, but she didn't squeeze back. Tears began rolling down my cheeks and I felt myself beginning to break down.

"Its ok darling" the nurse said as she rubbed my shoulder.

"Can she get out of this coma?" I said through tears.

"You wanna know a secret?" She said as she squatted down in from of me.

I narrowed my eyes at her, but nodded my head. She took my hand in hers and looked up at me.

"This whole thing is controlled by her, whether she lives or dies, its up to her. The doctors say they can do stuff, but it really her choice." She exclaimed, I looked at her with some doubt, but I need all of the hope I can get right now.

I looked back up at Jade, he breath rose and fell at a steady face and her face was completely relaxed. I noticed the small cuts and bruises all over her body, a nurse must have combed her hair down because it looked as soft as ever. I reached my hand up and ran my thumb down one of the cuts on her cheek. I expected her to lean into my touch as she does when she sleeping, but she was motionless.

I couldn't have just been watching the road. I let myself get distracted by her amazing looks. This is my fault....

2 weeks later....

Jade was still in a coma. Nothing has changed yet. Her vitals are the same, she still needs the breathalyzer and has had no movements.

I go and see her everyday, I tell her about my day. I have brought Fijmin a couple of times to see her. He is staying with me until Jade wakes up. Which she will wake up.

Jades POV

It is so quiet here, so peaceful.

There is so pain or death.

I enjoy this place, but the light is fading.

I hear Ethan, he tells me about his day.

I miss him so much.

I miss Fijmin.

I miss my parents.

I want to come back.

But the light is fading day by day.

I don't know how much longer I can go on.

Wow this is emotional