It was Friday and we had to go to Texas we had to go because of my grandparents we had to help clean up tree branches I was happy that Tess was out of school to because then I could talk to her. 8 hours later we were in Texas I jumped out and I stretched and went inside I was so tired and just ready to go to bed we visited for a little bit and then went to bed It was the next morning and I was still kinda tired but I shook it off I couldn't talk to Tess so I was ready to just go home I was tired of being there I was ready to go home and lay down in my bed and have time to actually talk to Tess but we stayed 2 days we just cleaned up the property and it was the last night we stayed in Texas everyone drinking and having fun as I was in pain just wanting to talk to Tess or even kaelyn my other friend I wouldn't really call her a friend I would classify her as a sister and Tess is my sister to they are just family they are always there but Tess is always there no matter what. We had to go home it was Sunday and I texted Tess "hey can you please text me I need to tell you something I know your not gonna like it but I would like you to hear it from me" she replied with " uhh what's going on?? Are you okay" I told her I am gonna do it tonight" she replied what are you going to do are you gonna cut or what is going on?!?" I told her " I am done I have officially given up people keep telling me you came here for a reason but I tell them yeah but I will be leaving for a reason to I am sorry you are having to hear this but thank you for all you have done for me and everything you have helped me through but I am giving up I truly can't do this any longer I cry everyday I am hurting all of the people around me and I don't want anyone else to come into my life and I hurt them you can keep telling me that I haven't hurt you but we both know I have I hurt you and I hurt Olivia I am done I am really sorry ." She replied with no no you can't be done your like family I can't have you leave please" we were at my grandmas house we stopped there to eat of the way there I told Tess " I am able to call you can we please talk?" She said " yea one sec " she called me she started to cry she said please please don't do it and I told her in true honesty i can't make any promises than she started to cry even more I felt terrible then the worst thing happened I heard Olivia's voice she told Tess's mom what happened and Olivia had my moms number and Tess's mom called my mom about everything about me cutting and how I wanted to end my life that night I just started to shake. My mom opened the door and said where are the cuts and I said what cuts ? And she closed the door of the pickup and she got off the phone and she started to talk to me I just cried that's all I could do and I asked who in the hell told ?!? Olivia commented back I did you promised and she told me " promises are meant to be broke I told her I can't trust you anymore and I left it at that.
