I opened my eyes slowly but closed the fast again. There was a bright light that blinded me. I rubbed my eyes and tried again.
I opened them and sat up. I was in a white room and laying some kind of hospital bed and I had a thin white blanket over me. I saw that I was connected to some kind of machines that made annoying beep sound. I moved a bit to make myself more comfortable but then I felt a painful sting in my stomach.
I lifted my blanket and I felt a a cold sweat running down my face.
There was some kind of a tiny metal circle stuck in my nabel.
I tried to pull it off but it just go more and more stuck and the pain gained.
"I wouldn't do that if I were you."
I was startled and looked around and saw a women wearing a white nurse dress, like something you see in the movies. She also had blond hair that was tight in a knot on the back of her head.
"Where am I ?" I asked the nurse. She smiled gently to me but the smile didn't reach her eyes.
"You're in a hospital dear. You were found floating in a lake, there were some hikers who found you."
I thought about what she said for a sec and then I realized one thing. John!
"What about a boy! Did you also find a boy? He has blond hair that stand straight up in the air, he also has blue eyes and he is 1,80 cm."
"There there, calm down, yes we found the boy, don't worry."
The she pushed me gently but rather roughly back down. But they had found John. I was so relieved.
"But what is that thing on my belly?" I asked her.
"What? Oh yeah , this. This thing kept you asleep while were fixing you up." The nurse didn't look at me while she said that. Sure she looked in my direction but her eyes were looking at the wall behind me. She probably thought that I didn't notice that.
"I have to go." I said and took the blanket off me.
"No, you can't do that!" the nurse said and pushed me down again with her inhuman strength.
"What the fuck are you doing?!" I yelled at her.
"You must lay still!" She said again and pulled some strappers from underneath the bed and strapped me down.
"What the fuck! Let me go you bloody bitch! I have to go and find John"
"Calm down Maria, it's okay." This wasn't the nurses voice, I knew that voice.
"John?" I looked to the door and saw him standing there. His blond hair standing straight up in the air and his blue eyes were shining.
"John, please tell her to let me go." I begged him. John walked over to me and put his hand on the nurses shoulder and gave her and head sign and she left. Then he came to me and sat down on my bed.
"What happened? Are you alright?" I asked him while trying to break free. John reached over and unbuckled the strappers.
"Yes I am fine. It's you who isn't. You have to stay still and let them cure you." John said and looked at me with such serious eyes. There was something in his eyes that I couldn't really understand. There was something so cold and not him.
"You are not John."
The fake John looked startled by my words.
"What do you mean Maria? Of course it's me, John," He smiled to me and if I had been someone else but me I would have believed it. But I was me and I knew 100 % that this thing wasn't John, tho it looked like it.
"No you're not. Now let me go , I'm going to find my John." I said and sat up.
Fake John was angry, I could see it on his face. Then he pushed me back down on my bed with the same inhuman strength as the nurse. Then he took up an injection and injected me in the arm before I could say or do anything. Everything went black again.
I dreamed a weird dream. I dreamed that a big , blond, boy ran into my room with bunch of other people. The blond boy ran to me and placed his hands on my face.
"Maria?" I heard him say. -John?- The John in my dream took my in his arms and ran out. I remember that I heard a loud noise and there were red blinking lights. I also saw smoke coming out of some of the rooms.
"John?" I asked in my dream. He sussed me and looked at me with his gentle blue eyes who I loved so dearly. This was my John.
