The only one I loved

The Reasons

It all started on afternoon ...
Katy just wanted to cry...
Everything in her life was miserable.
Her mother left her.
Her father was abusive.

He left her . She loved him still. Hurt with anger and emotions and extreme depression, she lost it . She overdosed. She cut until her hands were covered with blood to amounts unhealthy for anyone to bleed out . She knew this had to be the end . She tried and tried to get his attention again. But nothing worked . She hurt so bad . She thought that all pain that she was facing , was there for a reason. The suffering she was going through only had to be because she deserved it . Depression and anxiety overthrew all other emotions. She felt as if she could never love again. Not ever .
He never wanted her . He always wanted better . She only talked about how much pain she deserved and how much he never loved her . He never admitted to that fact he didn't love her. She would kill herself . He would have a death in his hands . And he never wanted that. He was a boy who never wanted to be the cause of trouble ,But always seemed to cause it.
She did it . She attempted to kill herself . But however no body noticed. She just acted like it was food poisoning, however she kept trying to punch herself silly . Make herself sick enough she died . But it never worked.  She eventually got to a point she found another way. Her ex would give her drugs. Any drugs she wanted. And so she asked for stuff that would kill her. She didn't care what. He gave her heroin laced with chemicals to kill. Of course she took it.
He found her. The empty house. He found her . She was lying on the ground covered in her own blood . An empty bottle beside her in witch had the drugs she took . He had no idea what. He called the ambulance. He called her mom. He called her dad . No one answered. The ambulance was 15 mins away. By the time they would have shown up she would be dead.
Finally she thought .. as the darkness overpowered her. I'm going to die. She was awoken by a slamming of a door. But couldn't move . She knew he came for her , but didn't know why. She loved him. But he never loved her.