The only one I loved

One Moment in Time

I rode with her to the hospital.
She looked peaceful , however the EMTs were freaking out.
She was losing blood.
And fast.

I held her hand the whole way there . I knew she wouldn't remember that I did. Even if she lived . I was bawling my eyes out. She wouldn't remember a thing. The fact that I let her go .. just to date another girl. Emma. She was trouble . She caused me to hurt the love of my life .

I woke up one afternoon. Hooked up to machines . I was covered in bandages . However I wondered how I got here.
I remember something... sirens ...
why was that the thing I remembered ? He was there too ... he came to my house... he knew I was there... but why did he come to my house...
I wanted to die . And he didn't let that happen. He stopped me . ...
Narcan ... I saw the prescription bottle on the table in the other side of the room. Damn it. That's why I lived. They gave me an anti overdose medication.
Did he know I got heroin? ... No he couldn't have . I started to look around the room. I stopped. He was asleep on the chair in the corner. Why did he stay? My phone ... was on the side table .. I grabbed it. I had no new messages... figures . No body cared .

It's been three days . She still hasn't woken up.. I will stay with her till she does . It's my fault she attempted to kill herself in the first place . I at least need to stay to watch her. The only thing I could do was wait.. my phone rang . It was Emma . God was she worried about me. I hadn't called back in a few days . I didn't answer anyone's texts. ... she even texted katy. I deleted the messages so she wouldn't see them . I was glad her password was still the same since we broke up ... my birthday 0130... I knew she missed me . My new girlfriend Emma . Well katy hated her. Always did. And told me I would leave her for Emma .. I denied it constantly. But a few weeks later I did. Katy wasn't herself . I texted her . I told her we were done. ... and the reason I gave ... ugh I should have realized how stupid I was.
... I said it was because she denied that I loved her. I really did love her. I still do. More then I ever loved Emma ... but I would never tell her that.

I slowly fell asleep . But when I woke up again... he was awake too . It was silence ... neither of us said a word...