stare - hvc + bsk (DISCONTINUED, READ LAST CHAP)

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-WARNING: SELF HARM IS INCLUDED/DISCUSSED IN THIS CHAPTER. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK-

hansol p.o.v

i skip down the halls with a smile plastered on my face. memories of being with seungkwan flood into my head and i feel excitement rush into my body at the thought of seeing him again.

as im walking down the halls happily, i think of the down sides of this. what if he actually dislikes me and he only went on the 'date' to apologise? what if i make him uncomfortable? what if's pile up in my head as i feel a familiar yet unwanted feeling in my chest

"no, no, no" i chant to myself "please not now... i-i can't be having a panic attack right now, i...i need to get through the day..."

i clutch my chest as my eyes water up, my face becomes redder as i rush to the bathrooms, doing the thing that makes me feel calm again, doing something that makes my heart slow down as the anxiety dies down.

i grab my bag and dive into the pockets, pulling out a small, glass bottle, that was meant for gym today.

i smash it against the sink and pick up the sharpest shard, and i do it, again.

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(a/n im not going into details about anything else of what hansols doing, you should know what happened by now. i don't like writing those scenes, sorry if it makes it less dramatic or whatever)

seungkwan p.o.v

i sigh as i walk through the school gates, jogging up to the building. why did i go to school this early? i think to myself. 07:45. it's way to early.

i walk barge through the door, deciding to take a walk around the school before people start coming in. as i walk through the bathroom, i hear choked sobs and sniffles. i choose to ignore it. but i hear a voice.

a voice saying 'why?' over and over again.

a voice i know well

hansols voice

i crash through the door and my eyes widen as i take in the sight in front of me. hansol, the cheery, bright boy, broken and crying right in front of me. wrists red and blood on the floor.

i skid next to him and hug him, tightly. kissing his head and i whisper a reassuring 'don't worry' and 'im here'.

he looks up slowly, fear pooling in his eyes along with tears. i kiss his cheek softly and hug him once more.

"hansol? what happened? why did you do this?" i ask, voice cracking and i don't realise im crying until he looks up and tries to wipe my tears.

"don't cry, boo" he whispers 'i just did something stupid, unnecessary, that's all"

"no, hansol, this isn't unnecessary or stupid, you just need to talk to someone"

"... i can't explain, seungkwan"

"that's okay, just follow me. you're coming to my house and we'll clean you up, you can talk to me when you're comfortable. you can text your parents saying you're with me."

i hold onto his hands and pull him up, our palms fit with each others as his fingers lock with mine perfectly.

we walk out the college, and im glad that i came early, we won't get caught and we'll just call in sick.

i look towards hansol who's biting his lip nervously. i peck his cheek quickly, telling him not to be nervous. he smiles weakly at me and i smile back, squeezing his hand tightly and we start to walk to my house, side to side, hand in hand.

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this sucked im sorry

sorry for late updates as well

aND SORRY IF YOU EXPECTED BETTER OR SMTH I CANT WRITE AGSUDBDN

jhope you enjoyed <3

~anthony's jenga obsession