Are You There? ("Those Eyes" sequel, Camren Fan Fic)

Chapter 4: Live a Little

Camila's POV:

I'm exhausted! I always end up like this after dance rehearsal. As soon as we get home I go to my room and lay on my bed and put on my earphones. It feels so good to have this time just for me. Music takes me places, its like my body stays on this bed, but my soul and my mind go somewhere else. Suddenly I feel someone snatch one of my earphones, and I see her. I see her piercing green eyes staring into mine and a soft smile on her face. "Hey. I'm sorry, I knocked on your door a thousand times before I came in, I though you had died." Lauren tells me, her deep voice sends shivers down my spine. "Its okay, I just have this horrible habit of listening to music on full blast." I answer and she smiles at me. "I know that Camz." She says staring at my lips. Of course she does, she knows everything about me. "So, what's up?" I say after a couple of seconds of silence and she sets her eyes back on mine. "Listen, can we talk? I need to clear my head, I'm freaking out a bit." Lauren says. "What about Ingrid?" I ask and she chuckles. "I said talk Camila, not lets have an intense make out session in the living room." She says making me blush. "Right, I'm a dork, sorry." I say staring at my hands. "I know that too Camz." Lauren says with a smile. "Of course you do." I answer blushing even more. Fuck, I'm an idiot. "So anyway, I need to talk to someone and you're like the person who gets me the most." Lauren says closing my door behind her. "Sure, I'm all ears." I say with a smile and tap my bed so she sits next to me. "So Normani came to my room and she sort of kissed me a couple of minutes ago." She says whispering the last part of the sentence. "She what? Are you fucking kidding me?" I ask covering my mouth. I can't believe she kissed her! I thought she was with Arin and they seemed to be okay. When the hell did that happen? Holy shit, I'm shocked! And extremely, furiously, deeply jealous. Normani is supposed to be my friend, why the hell is she kissing my ex? Like seriously, I want to kill her right now. "Please don't say anything Camz, she'll fucking kill me! But I don't know what to do, I think she really wants to start something with me." She says softly. "Umm and do you want to start something with her?" I ask staring deeply into her eyes. Maybe I don't want to hear what she has to say about this. The idea of the two of them together makes me want to puke. But she doesn't say anything, she just looks at me like a lost puppy looking for a hug. "It must be awkward to talk this shit with your ex, isn't it?" I say and she softly smiles at me. "Don't say that Camzi, you're not just my ex, you're my best friend and nothing is ever going to change that." Lauren says putting her hand on my leg. She's still the same girl I love, nothing has really changed about her. And she's just trying to move on, I can't blame her for that. "Its nice to talk to you again." I say putting my hand on top of hers and she smiles at me. I don't know how to feel about this, I want to be her friend again, but at the same time I'm scared I'll ruin everything. And I don't know what the hell I should do with Normani, I'm pissed. Suddenly we hear a knock on my door. "Lauren, are you in here?" Ingrid says from the hallway and Lauren rolls her eyes taking her hand away from my leg. "Maybe." She answers laying down on my bed. Holy shit, why is she doing that? I haven't had her this close in three months. "I'm coming in." Ingrid announces turning the door knob. "Wait! Let me put my bra on!" Lauren answers sarcastically and the door opens. "You shouldn't be here alone girls." She tells us angrily and Lauren stands up. "We were just talking, chill." She says walking out of my room. "We really were Ingrid, there's nothing going on, I promise." I say with a smile, but she doesn't smile back. "I don't care what the heck is going on between you two, but you need to stay apart, Simon's orders." She tells me crossing her arms. "Sure." I say coldly and put my earphones back on. So Normani fucking kissed her, great! How am I supposed to look at her again and pretend there's nothing wrong when she kissed my ex-girlfriend? I'm so pissed and confused! Like why is Lauren all of the sudden talking to me again? I need to sleep, or at least try too. I'm pretty sure its going to be extremely hard with all of this shit in my head.

Lauren's POV:

"Lauren can I have a word with you?" Ingrid stops me on the way to my room. "What do you want?" I ask turning to face her. I'm so fucking tired of this woman, God! "Why are you making this hard for all of us?" She says frowning. "I'm not, I'm just being myself." I say with a smirk and Ingrid rolls her eyes. "Look, I'm dating a guy, I'm not into Camila anymore and I don't need you to look after us 24/7, okay? I'm sick and tired of this bullshit, I want to live my life, and I don't need you in it." I say trying not to sound too bitchy. "We all go through hard times Lauren, I know what you're going through." She tells me sympathetically, but I'm not buying it, and she's only making me angrier. I tried to be nice, but I can't take this anymore. "You know what? You don't! You have no fucking idea what I went through, okay? I was forced to forget about the love of my life, I was forced to see her everyday, but I wasn't allowed to talk to her, or touch her, or tell her how much I loved her and missed her. You guys ruined my life, you made me numb and cold and I lost myself. So the next time you want to pull that "I know what you're going through" act, just don't, because you have no fucking idea what it's like to have the person you love the most taken away from you, no one does. And now that I'm finally finding myself again, I'd appreciate it if you stayed the hell out of my life and let me be relatively happy." I say screaming, and I see Camila standing the doorframe of her room. "So you can tell Simon I said that. Goodnight Ingrid." I add and walk to my room glancing at Camila. She looks at me biting her lip and then she walks into her room. Fuck, did she hear me? She probably did, but is that a good thing or a bad thing? I don't even know anymore. I slam my door behind me and burry my head on my pillow. I needed to get out of my system, I feel so much better now that I said how I felt. Suddenly Cole is calling me, so after a couple of seconds I pick it up. "Hey baby girl, how are you? Are you still busy?" He asks me sweetly as soon as I answer. "No, not really. I just had a fight with Ingrid though." I say laying down on my bed. "That sucks, are you okay?" Cole asks me and I sigh. "I guess, I'm just fucking tired of this whole thing, you know?" I answer remembering about Camila standing outside of her room, looking at me like she used to do. "I have an idea. Do you want to go somewhere?" He says with a mischievous chuckle. "Okay, where?" I ask smiling. "I'll be at your apartment in ten minutes, get ready for some fun." He answers and hangs up. Why is he being so mysterious? But I'm all in for an adventure, I'm tired of being in this freaking apartment with Ingrid all day. I don't even know what I should wear or for how long we'll be gone. I need to be in the studio tomorrow morning, and I can't miss a recording day. But, you know what? Fuck this shit, I don't care. I don't care about Simon's precious reputation, I'm going to live a little. I go to my closet, grab a bunch of clothes and put them in a bag, put on a hoodie and tip toe my way down to the front door. "Where are you going?" I suddenly hear a voice, but I'm glad it wasn't Ingrid's. "Just go to bed Camila, I'll be right back." I say opening the door. "Remember we have to record new songs tomorrow morning Lo, please don't be late." Camila says and walks back to her room. So that's all she cares about, the fact that I may be late for recording? Fuck her dude, she's supposed to be my friend. Just fuck everybody, I'm tired of my life. I walk out of the apartment and I see Cole's truck parked in the next street. "Hey beautiful, you made it!" He says hugging me and kisses my lips. "Yeah, I guess I did." I answer and get in his car. "So where are we going?" I ask smiling and Cole starts driving. "Its a surprise, you'll see." He says grinning. This is exactly what I need, a break from reality. Suddenly I get a text, a text I wasn't expecting to get.

From: Camila

Hope you find what you're looking for. And you were wrong, I do know what you went through, and I wish I had been there for you. Please be careful.

"Who's texting you?" Cole asks with his eyes set on the road. "Its nothing, don't worry." I answer putting my hand on his leg, and I try to text her back without him realizing.

To: Camila

You were there, you always are. I'll be back soon, don't worry.

I send it and put my phone away. "So are you ready to have the time of your lifetime?" Cole asks me smiling. "Hell yeah, lets do this!" I answer staring out of my window, looking at the starry sky and taking a deep breath. I should've done this a long time ago.