Red Boundary Lines

Knowing

It's finally lunch time, and just my luck, he's sitting at the only empty table. Did I mention that the tables are small squares with four stools a table? And the stools don't move? I sigh and go sit down on the stool farthest away from him. I pull a small bag of chips and a water out of my backpack. As I'm unscrewing the lid to my water I hear him whisper a soft "Hi." I stopped what I was doing and just stared at him. His voice was smooth like chocolate, but rough like gravel. That's not what made me look at him though. it's the fact that I KNOW that voice. Suddenly I'm pulled back two years, into a memory I was hoping had been lost.

*emotional flash back*

I was in sixth grade. I thought I knew everything. Heck, I still do. It was just a year ago, after it all. I was at Vacation Bible School, being the good little Christian girl I was at the time. We were in the middle of the lesson when these two boys with dirty blond hair walked in- Jeremiah and Adrain Womack. We had known each other since we where in diapers, but that summer we actually noticed each other. We started hanging out and texting, and i fell in love. then suddenly, he stopped answering. It crushed my heart into tiny little pieces, because he never knew how i felt. And it all started when I was dared to go tell him hello by one of the younger kids at church. And his response was the same small ,"hi."

*end of flash back*

I didn't realize I was crying until he asked me if I was ok. I just looked at him and in a small, fragile, cracking voice said, "Adrain?" I swear the smile he got on his face after that was unreal. "Faith, I thought that was you! I thought I would never see you again!" I just blinked and answered like the smooth dummy I am, "huh?" It shocked me how it sounded like he was truly relieved that he could see me again. Usually when people lose me their happy about it. Next thing I know I'm being squished in this tight bear hug. Adrain whispers in my ear, "I missed having my BFF around." and kissed my cheek. My BFF. Thats a joke we came up with before he left. But the kiss on the cheek? This couldn't be Adrain. "Faith, are you ok? You look a little pail." he asked me. "Yeah, I'm fine. But I don't go by Faith anymore. It's Z now." He got this weird look on his face. "Z? Ok, but why? What happened to you?" "Just some stuff. Don't worry about it." He just nodded his head as an answer. "Adrain?" he looks at me. "Why did you kiss my cheek?" He blushes. "I'll tell you later. When we have free time in Phys." "Ok."

Hey. So, this was a very emotional chapter for me.... I may or may not have cried while writing the flash back..... that was a true story though. I still haven't heard from him. I don't even know if he's alive. And if he's dead, he died without knowing my secret love for him. And that hurts. a lot. Anyways, comment would you? I could really use some support from my readers. if I have any....

Love,

Z </3