The Reason Why | NaLu ✔️️

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3. You were honest and genuine

I think these two traits could count as two reasons why. So, this is the third reason of the five I'm writing for you.

You've always been an honest and genuine person, telling me the truth about everything and venting to me whenever you needed it; before you could get any worse keeping it all bottled up.

The truth hurts, sometimes.

I had finally realized I had fallen in love with you. This was in our senior year of high school, a few days before we graduated.

It took all of high school for me to come to terms with that - the fact that I loved you.

But, compared to me, you were a daisy and I was just a weed. Maybe even a dead weed, because I had given up on ever becoming a flower.

I remember we were sitting outside of the school, beside a river and on a bench by that river. You had your legs dangling over the edge, staring at your reflection in the water. The water rippled sometimes, making your face join the small movements and tear it apart. It always settled down though, returning your face to normal.

"Natsu," you had spoken up, grabbing my hand gently and making me blush. I looked your way and noticed -

Your eyes. They weren't glowing. At all. They held sadness; that was it.

"Lucy..." I had breathed out, awkwardly intertwining my fingers with yours. I had always wanted to do that, but always been afraid. But, you didn't object, and helped me fixate our hands to be held comfortably together.

"I fainted yesterday."

Yesterday was Sunday, so I didn't know this until today, which was Monday.

My heart swelled up, not in a happy way.

"I went to the hospital," you had said, "and they performed some scans on me. Very thorough scans to make sure nothing in my body had malfunctioned to make me faint for no good reason."

I waited for your next words, but was shocked to see tears glinting in your eyes. I had never seen you cry before.

I hated it.

"I have brain cancer, Natsu."

I didn't know what to feel. I was heartbroken. Angry at God for making you sick. Disappointed.

I was confused. Why did someone as bright as you have to get this sick?

Now you were crying. You laid your head on my shoulder and cried, and I held your hand tighter as I stared up at the gray skies above me.

Today hadn't been nice weather wise, and the weather fit the whole scene perfectly.

I wanted to tell you I loved you. But I got scared.

Not now. It can wait.