" She's still not up yet"
The distorted voice came to me through what seemed like fog, I tried to open my eyes but was forced to close them as the bright light above me was excruciating to my eyes
Where the hell was I.
I tried to remember where I was and the events came flooding back to me, my man, the woman on the phone the fall, my baby. My hand flew automatically to my stomach it was not as distended as before and that when I notice the empty feel I sat up eyes wide
My baby....
The room was spinning, the light blinding as I adjusted up on the bed.
" Ms Green, please take it easy your in the hospital"
That same voice said as a hand steadied me on the bed. Hospital i relaxed at that, my eyes started to adjust to the brightness of the room as I looked around, I noted the doctor standing above me his hand on my shoulder for comfort his eyes shining with concern.
"How are you feeling?"
"Like I just got hit by a truck, am thirsty thou could I have some water"
" Sure"
He stretched the glass that was already on my bedside to me and I drank from it the cool water sliding down my throat was glorious. I handed the water to him with a murmur of thanks.
"Ms. Green what can you remember of your accident?"
" I remember coming down the stairs of my home to go to the cab to get over to the hospital, I was in labour the next thing I remember is my face meeting the ground and I blacked out"
" That was three days ago the taxi man carried you in you were unconscious through the whole delivery"
My heart heart swelled with instant love I was about to meet my child the one I cared for in my womb for the past nine months, it was a shame I didn't get to be the one to see him into the world but at least he's here.
"Can I see her?"
" Uhmm Ms Green there's something that we need to discuss''
At the tone of his voice the quite seriousness tinged with sorrow I knew something was wrong.
He was premature and they always had complication its no big deal, right?
" Ms. Green am sorry to have to tell you this but your daughter was born premature and has pneumonia, we are trying our best to keep her breathing in a ventillator"
My head started spinning again a as the implications of what was just said hit me.
How? Why her?
"How?" I managed to croak out at the doctor who was fidgeting with his pen.
"It seems you have clamydia and during the birth it infected the babies lung, the baby being a premie did not help"
"Clamydia, how could I have that there was no signs and the only person I've been with is my baby's daddy?"
"Clamydia comes mostly with no symptoms so you would not have been aware of it, seeing that you have only one sexual partner then that narrows it down significantly''
I had fucking Clamydia and my baby was suffering because of it I could just tell how she must feel with all those tube in her breathing for her
" We have managed to breathe enough oxygen into her body that she is not as blue as she was within the first hours of her birth, once your rested you can see her she's in the children's area of this ward"
" Thank you''
I watched as the doctor excused himself to go to his duty. I looked around tears in my eyes.
How could Mike do this? It wasn't enough he was fucking around but now he gave me fucking Clamydia and our daughter is now suffering.
Noticing my phone on the table beside my bed I called him, we definitely needed to talk. I wasn't even sure if he's been to the hospital since I've been here. His phone went straight to voice mail so I decided to call the house phone hopefully he was home but that too went to the machine. I gave up calling after several rings.
I'll just ask the nurse when she comes but I need to see my baby
I stood up my body swaying a bit but I quickly regained my equilibrium, I headed out the room and walked right into a nurse
"Excuse me can u show me where the child ward is particular the area for premies "
"No problem, just follow this corridor and take the first left its a double door you can't miss it"
I thanked her and made my way to the ward all the while praying that it wasn't as bad as I though my mind sometimes over exaggerated things to an extreme. I entered the wall and say the sign for the premies room on my left I open the door and stood in a room divided by a glass, through the glass I could see incubators all lined up in neat rows and labelled with names on there where there was no name the date of birth was written I looked at the tags and say one for three days ago inside was the smallest bundle u could have thought she looked frail and tubes were strung from her nose and her mouth there also seem to he a drip attached to her. It was not as bad as I imagined it was worst I thought as tears spilled down my cheeks.
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A week had past and I was still in the hospital as I was given treatment for my low blood count and pressure. Hope, my daughter was still here but was looking a lot better than the first time I saw her. She had gotten some color on her and the doctors say she was breathing a bit on her own but there's is now a hole in her lungs. She is not getting much feeding as she refuses to eat much so her weight is not increasing which is a concern for both me and the doctor I was schedule to be released today but Hope would still be admitted her situation to dire to leave. I was sad and lonely and worried and pissed as fuck its been ten days if you count the days I was passed out and Mike as yet to make an appearance and I have yet to contact him by phone not even the house and I called every hour after seeing Hope for the first time. I had needed to talk to someone I was even willing to forgive him for the infection but as it was for the last five months he is never around. I has left school with my diploma but had not made it college due to my pregnancy I depended solely on Mike as my mom wants nothing to do with me from the day she found out I was pregnant. What was I going to do would I have to stay with him just because I had no other choice I had only kept in touch with one of my friends and we barely even talk. I knew both Mike and I needed to talk but first I had to see Mike and hopefully now that am out of the hospital i could finally see him.
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Real Love
RomanceThe journey through love and life. Jade believes in love and she is determined to find it, this is his her journey through lies, betrayal and pain just to find her one true love