Real Love

Chapter Five: Death

I woke up with a start, looking around not sure where I was but I knew I was suppose to get to the hospital. I sat up quickly and noticed I didn't have far to go I was already in the hospital, it seems the shit for me to the hospital after I fainted. I staggered to the door ad I was still a bit dizzy, I needed to see my daughter especially if she did not have much time.

I slowly walked through the hospital my head still light but not enough to be a deter me from my mission. I approached the child ward and looked through the class on the door and say that there was no one in the room I stepped inside and looked for Hope. She was still there breathing tubes and all other things attached to her my heart ached for her, she was so young she should have had her whole life ahead of her but that was short lived by a greedy bastard who wanted it all.

I was sick to my stomach, I had done this to my child I had killed her. I should have seen the signs,all the late nights, the sudden no calls and all that too tired to have sex crap or I don't wanna hurt the baby, I was so stupid I thought he actually cared about not hurting the baby but of course he was just tired from screwing Melisa's brains out. My inability to find his flaws or to be ignore them was the death of my child.

This was all my fault.

I heard shuffling around and looked to see the doctor at the door.

"Its time Ms. Green we have to remove the tubes am sorry but once done she will seize to breathe on her own as the pneumonia damaged her already frail lungs."

"Wait where is Mike?"

"He left after he brought you in and I told him of your daughters condition''

I was shocked, not only had he fucking killed our daughter but he wasn't even here after everything he's done.

" Go.....g....go ahead d.....doc....doctor " my voice cracked and my heart expanded in my chest painfully

"Are you sure you wanna be here for this"

I couldn't speak, I just nodded not taking my eyes off of Hope in the glass case my eyes filled with tears as the doctor approached the machine to shut off the breathing apparatus attached to me, I saw the paleness of my daughter I saw her tubed and taped up body as she took her last breathe, I was totally fixed on her I didn't even feel the tears drop just saw my eyes cloud over like looking through a glass on a rainy day. Hope was gone, I had not had her for long but she had become my world I had never knew that one could love in so short a time but as the breathe has left Hope's frail body it seems my breathe has left and my heart had shattered and I felt every crack and every break as it broke.

I heard a scream echo around the room, the pain resonating in the voice, it was filled with agony, rage and sadness. It was from me.

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I had depended on Mike for everything, I had not worked or done anything after leaving school. I had made him my world, I had no idea what to do next but I knew we could not stay together not after everything, not after this, not after Hope.

I sat on the couch contemplating the future as I was unable to look on the past. I could not blame Mike maybe I was just not attractive enough any more or I was not fun but I just could not see myself trying to fix it after I had lots my child, I jut wanted out.

I heard the door open and shut and saw Mike approach cautiously from the corner of my eyes

"Jada....."

"Don't you fucking dare, after everything, you still wasn't even there for her last breathe you weren't even there for me"

"I couldn't be... .I......I couldn't be there.....I couldn't see my child die because of my stupid mistake.....I ......I cou.......couldn't watch you......you fall apart and knew it was me"

"You.....you couldn't...." I stopped realizing that I was being unreasonable how did I expect a selfish fucker to say anything else besides what he couldn't do.

"Mike am leaving, I will stay here until I can fine a suitable place to stay until then I will be staying in the guest room"

"Please Jada, please don't do this, it was one stupid mistake"

"One stupid mistake that cost me my daughter and could have caused me my life"

"Please Jade, please just think about it. I know....''

I got up from the couch and headed to the opposite side away from the room we have shared for a almost a year.

" your upset but once you've calmed down we will talk, I love you and I am so sorry about our daughter...'

I stopped.

"Mike?"

"Yes'' he said hope lacing his voice

" Hope''

"What?"

"That's what 'our daughter's' name was"

And I shut the door as silence fell.