The Story Of Alex

Chapter 10:

As if being around them 2 days a week was bad, now I have to see them for 15 hours for the next two weeks. Horray! I was not excited. I mean, it was cool I got to go through every line of the play but the people I was around wasn't as cool.

Sara wasn't at practice Monday and Tuesday due to being sick. But Alex was. And to be honest, I was scared. I had a plan. And it was hard to tell if I was doing the right thing until it was already too late.

Half way through the show I had to hang on to his arm and pretend to be his girlfriend. It was great, I wasn't complaining, but it was odd. Both of our faces instantly turned red and I couldn't help but laugh. A lot. It would have to be this way for 3 more weeks!

After my part was over I was a little sad. Alex called me short and said it was hard holding on to someone who was so small. I think he was just playing around. He was really warm and it was... Nice.

Then after our parts, we got to go sit back down in our seats of the audience. I sat next to Cassie and Alex sat in the section next to me. I think he moved seats after what happened with my mom.

Cassie suggested I talk to him after I complained to her that I thought he hated me. I didn't want to talk to him. I was scared. I knew I messed up and I didn't want to make it worse. "You should just be honest with him" Cassie said to me.

So I pulled out a piece of paper and my pencil. I don't know where I'm going with this note. I'm really sorry if I made things weird between us and I'm sorry if I overreacted from the note. I shouldn't have. I'm willing to forgive you since you didn't know how that affected me. I like you and I understand if you don't like me that way. I'm used to it. But if I didn't already ruin it, I'd still like to be your friend.

I was really nervous but relieved when I got all that off my chest. It wasn't easy to write. I freaked out the whole time and was worried he would come over and ask what I was writing. When I finished, I shoved the note in my binder and ran on to the stage for my next scene.

After practice, I got my shoes and coat on as quick as possible and pulled the note out of my bag. Many kids asked me if it was a love note. I was quick to respond "no" although I guess the end of it was.

"Give me that" Cassie said, noticing how I was shaking and pacing back and forth in one spot. She walked towards it and placed it in his hand. I watched and then quickly ran out. Literally.

When I got to the car I said "go go go mom go!" Alex followed me out with the note in his hand. He looked all over the parking lot and when he noticed I was already in the car, he walked back inside.

I asked myself what would've happened if I stayed outside. Would he have said something back? Did he still like me? Did he ever?