Star Crossed Lovers

~Chapter - 12 - Micah ~

~ Chapter – 12 ~

We made good on promises that we would not see each other for a while. Laying low was what we agreed upon until we could figure out all this shit. Though I did not anticipate the sadness and the longing that I had for my Sophia. There were times it hit me in great waves. I never felt this way about anyone. Not even Mary or any of my previous girlfriends. Sophia was different. Sophia was the one.

But there was more to it. I needed her so much that I craved her. I had to touch her, even if it was just being near her. The constant contact meant more to me than I realized it. It was security for me. It was security for her as well.

I'd see her walking the streets during her pap walks and I saw that longing in her eyes. That was for me. It was so hard being away from each other. When it got bad, we broke our vow and met up places just to be with each other for a few hours. It was enough to sustain us through to the next time, but it was getting harder and harder to leave each other. She would cry and I would wrap my arms around her. It was always us in our little bubble. No one else mattered.

All those weeks before, I never dreamed how much my life was going to change. Deep down, I knew taking that role would change everything for me. I just couldn't admit it to myself then. I guess I always thought I was going to be with Mary and miserable because we had a child and I never wanted to leave the child without a father. I realize that was wrong. Mary and I could have raised our daughter with us both in other relationships.

It has been a few months now, but it is not to bad keeping it a secret. Hell, it's fucking hot sneaking around and fucking wherever, whenever. The only one that knows about our secret is Johnnie. She has been helping us be together. She would allow us to stay in her house while she works to work abroad or she'd rent a hotel room in her name. She has been great but we have been using her when we shouldn't.

This was the way we wanted it for now. It had to be hidden until we were able to come out publicly. It is hard with our busy schedules, but we've been able to stay in contact. We want this to work more than anything. We can travel unseen in Sophia's parent's jets'. Not like we haven't done it before.

If anyone found out, shit would hit the fan, and the studio would force us to be apart. Even though Mary I are separated, the studio was pushing the marriage and family down people's throats. Every interview I've done; it all becomes about Mary. It is like where the fuck do I fit in? It makes me fucking sick to deal with this shit. To top it off, the questions are always same god damn questions. I'm at the point where I don't even have to look at past scripts, I know what it says verbatim. The fans absolutely fucking hate it. Don't blame them one bit.

It might be another three or four years to come out since there are four books being made into a movie. I don't know if we can mentally, physically, or spiritually wait that long. My soul is already going through a beating. Sophia couldn't go through this either.

Our fans are way too observant sometimes, they'd jump on this in a heartbeat. What we are doing is necessary for us to be together and to keep our distances publically and not talk about each other in interviews, because that would lead to questions neither of us are ready to answer. The rumors are still running rampant. How long would it before we have to answer to those questions?

The buzzing of my phone brought me out of my reverie. Since Sophia and I got together, we got new phones, only we have the numbers too. They are our lifelines; we are never without them.

As I reached into tan my pants pocket, the door opened, and someone popped their head the in the green room. The guy had a fluff of blonde hair, tan, and wore board shorts. Surfer dude type.