3 - The Concert
At about 4:30 I started getting ready. I put on my Badlands record and started my makeup. My makeup was pretty much the same as normal with a lil more winged liner and more glitter. I curled the ends of my hair. My hair is brown fading to to pastel pink. After curling it looked really nice, almost too nice so i put on my Jack Baran 'I'm always in a phase' hat on backwards and put on my clothes. I wore my white vans, black high waisted shorts, and my Tana Mongeau bleach and tone shirt.
Since I was already ready I sat on my bed and fiddled with my Rubicks cube because bitches love the Rubicks cube (if you got that refrence, 10 friend points for you) I got up just to be 100% sure I was ready. I hate it. I hate myself. I grip my thighs and mumble 'ew' under my breathe. I felt like I was suffocating. I ran into my bathroom room and grabbed my razor i taped under the sink where Caleb wouldn't find it. Caleb is very protective and he takes my razors all the time. I slid it across my wrist and watched the blood fall. I put on an extra bracelet just to ensure coverage.
"Jade" I hear Caleb call from down the stairs. " Your friend is here" i let out a breath to calm myself. "Be down in a sec" I yell back. I decide to take off my hat because I didn't want to keep track of it. I then stepped on the scale. 110. shit. that's 30 pounds over my goal. I step of the scale and head downstairs. Caleb and Audrey are sitting having a conversation. I make eye contact with Audrey. She looks down at my wrist. I look down and one of the bracelets had slid down a little revealing scars. I quickly move my arm and say "Let's get going" she looks over to Caleb and says "Have a goodnight" he replies with a nod and we head out the door. "You look beautiful" she says when we get in the car. "Thanks, not to bad yourself" she smiles and hands me the aux cord. I plug in my phone and play 'Build God Then We'll Talk' by Panic! at the disco. I go to turn it up but so does she and our hands touch. I haven't felt butterflies for someone like that in a long time.
hey guys! so i'm gonna try to publish a new chapter everyday. if i miss a day or two, be patient. a new chapter will be out soon.
xoxo
~ lava girl
