A Look Through Time // Sheriarty Short AU

the way you look at me

Today's the day.

Today is the day.

I've not been on a date in years, in fact not since Irene and I were still together, although now I look back on them, I wouldn't really consider them dates...just an excuse to hook up at the end of them.

Oh how my life has changed.

Molly was only 4 when Irene left with another guy out of the blue. She left a note on the kitchen table - 'goodbye sherlock. Look after molly.' Nothing else, just those 5 words. I later found out through gossip from her friends that she left with another man, and left Molly and I alone without another word. It's disgusting really. We created and raised Molly together and then she leaves with another Man!  She left Molly. She left me. I was clueless to the fact that she was having an affair. She's just leave the house sometimes, and I'd just think she's meeting up with friends or something normal like that. But no, she was off with another man.

She left me broken. I loved her, I truly did and I was delusional in thinking that she loved me back. Surely she must have had a part of her that loved me at one point, otherwise I would've noticed. But I didn't notice, did I?

I've never been on a date since. After she left, I wanted to do all that I could to raise Molly the best that I could. Dating never seemed important. Molly and money was what mattered. But now I'm getting the opportunity to date again, and this will benefit molly and me. This is a good thing. This is a good thing. Molly doesn't ask for Irene anymore. I know she wonders where her mum is, but she's asking less and less. Perhaps that's a bad thing though. She deserves to know her mum, but should molly know the woman who abandoned Her?

I'm having a mental battle. Irene deserted molly and I,  so should I go find her for Molly to know her Properly?

I don't know.

"Daddy." I break out of my trance, standing in the middle of the living room. "Are you okay Daddy? " I turn around to see little Molly looking up at me with her big innocent eyes. I smile softly.

"Yes Molly, I'm fine just thinking is all." I sit down in my armchair.

"What were you thinking about? Are you nervous about the date today?" She walks slowly towards me and curls up on my lap. I wrap my arms around her small body.

"No its not that tinker."

"Then...Were you thinking about...mummy Again? " I sigh aloud, guilt rising in my stomach.

"Yes I was." She shuffles on my lap so she is face to face with me.

"I'm 6 now daddy and mummy has been gone for 2 years. I know she isn't coming back. But I'm happy that it's just us two! And Jim will join us too! I don't care that mummy is gone because I'm happy with You! " I try to hold back the tears that threaten to spill down my face.

"But don't you want to see your Mummy?  Surely you miss her, and I'm doing the best I can for you, but am I doing Enough? Am I a good Dad? " I genuinely ask, hoping that she'll answer honestly.

"You're the best dad in the world! And I don't want to see mummy because I know daddy. I know that she abandoned us and I don't want a mummy who doesn't want me or you." I hug molly tightly. This was a real concern that I had, and thank goodness that she understands.

"I'm so sorry molly that your mummy did that to you. Just so you know I'll never leave you. You're the best thing that has happened to Me! " She releases herself from the hug.

"It does sometimes make me sad daddy, but I know you will never leave and then that makes me happy again. Besides, I'd rather have another daddy and I really like Jim. Don't mess this up now daddy!" I smile at her comment and she jumps off of my lap with a cheeky smirk on her face.