my lips curved up when i saw jimin smiling at me after hearing my poem. i've never seen him smile like that before, i think this is the first time i saw him smile like that. it's genuine, and it's giving me butterflies in my stomach.
i also admit that i kinda like him. you can't blame me, he's cute and attractive. but that doesn't remove the fact that i'm still mad at him from what he did yesterday.
it's lunch break now and i saw jimin preparing his packed lunch in his seat. i just went to the cafeteria with jihye.
while waiting for jihye to get our lunch, i scrolled down through my phone.
"let's eat together." i heard someone said and looking at that, it was park jimin. oh, now i remember what i told him before that he's free to join us.
"oh okay." it was awkward for me. i don't know how to talk anymore.
"i'm sorry for what happened." he speaks while looking down.
"it's alright." yeah, whatever. i forgave him easily. "it's nice seeing you here in the cafeteria. you should have more friends."
"i don't need friends." he said firmly.
"but you should have. no man is an island."
"i'm not like you, i'm not that desperate to have friends."
what did he just say?
that's the time i got the nerves. i can feel my face turning red after hearing that. i just forgave him and now he's giving me another reason to be mad at him.
"did you just say that i'm desperate to have friends?"
"n-no... i'm just not good with words. that's not what i'm trying to s—"
"it is," i sighed in disappointment, "i'm sorry for making you think of that way. to be honest, i don't just befriend anyone. i'm not that kind of person. i'm just talking to you because i like you. eat well, goodbye."
i left him, feeling a bit teary-eyed. this is not what i want him to see about me. i became desperate in his eyes. maybe i should just stay away from him. i guess being too friendly is bad. i even confessed to him out of the blue, that's really fucked up.
as i was not looking in my way, i bumped into someone, "what's with that ugly face?" it was hoseok.
"we're blood-related so if i'm ugly, you're ugly too."
"i was joking, don't take it seriously. but seriously, what happened?" before i even reply, i saw jimin wandering around and looks like he's looking for someone which i assume that it's me. i grabbed hoseok's hand to run away because jimin might saw us there.
"is it because of that guy?" hoseok stopped as he pants his breath, he probably noticed because of my stupidity.
i remain to be silent but he keeps on nagging and asking me about jimin, "eunjung, i didn't run with you just to be quiet here. tell me something atleast."
i told him. what jimin said and what i feel towards him. no more less.
"damn, that new guy has already the guts to make you cry?" hoseok stood up as if he was about to make a fight.
"i didn't cry! i just got teary-eyed."
"you cried, stop lying. i have to kill that guy for making such a fuss and making my ugly cousin cry!"
"hoseok." i called him with my deepest tone.
"fine, i was just joking, again. just leave that guy alone. if i see him, i'll make him a dead meat, he's nothing compared to me." he chuckled, trying to comfort me.
"really?" i laughed.
"yes, if he can sing, i can also sing. uh... but with the help of min yoongi from the other class. they call us sope. weird and cool at the same time, right? also, i'm hundred percent sure that i can dance better than that guy even though i don't know whether he dance or not."
"silly you, let's go eat." i ruffled his hair, he's the best cousin i have.
from now on, i will avoid that silent guy, park jimin.
