Street : A Hood Romance

Kassie Vs Kiss

The week came and went , well Monday and Tuesday did . After wed. The rest of the week should fly by and I'll be in Bombshell bringin in the first of the month .

Time flies by fast when you avoid a social life .. fear of judgement of course. People will knod in agreement but never really understand.

The rain knocking on my window makes me feel like I'm not here alone , even though I am. I've never been afraid to be lonely because I've never had anyone consistent . But I do fear that once I have someone , once I know how it feels to be with someone , around someone , laying with someone , being in someone's arms .. I'll never wanna be lonely again ; I won't like it because it feels too good to be held. I don't wish I had someone because I don't know what it feels like to have someone so how can I yearn for it

But you can't mix love with underground money . That's why I've never entertained the thought of a real relationship - I rather just love Knowledge from a distance .

"what's up , been a minute since we kicked it you've been caught up" Jhene Aiko's voice echoed through the apartment.

I turned the radio up and walked to the window.  My eyes followed the rain as I bought my wine class to my lips. I watched as each rain drop poured down from the sky , one going faster then the other , some hitting the side walk , some hitting window seals , some hitting cars , and some hitting umbrellas but each of them had something to fall on .

Turning away from the window I picked up my cell phone and unlocked it . I went into my contact's stopping when i reached Sky's name, shaking my head I threw my phone back down .

I can't call Sky , Wednesday night is the only night she has off and I know her and Quan are breaking each other's backs right now .

I wonder how it feels to have meaningful sex , to fuck someone because you love them , because you find them attractive.  I wonder if the moans are different,  what the four play is like , what kind of sex talk is had. I've never experie how it feels to make love.

I laid on the couch and closed my eyes remembering the night I lost my virginity.

Sky and I were in front of the house after school, it was the begging of September and it was my first day in the ninth grade.  Back then I used to always wear Sky's clothes which were always tight enough to cause attention to my ass and breasts .

I didn't have much of my own clothes and anything I had would have caused me to be teased.  My hair was in a donut bun on the top of my head , I had on big door knocker earrings and Sky has put eye liner and pink lip gloss on me .

My body was blooming. Men old enough to be my father were always trying to talk to me and I actually found humor in the attention. 

A red beamer had pulled up in front of the house and honked their horn twice . Sky stared into the beamer before smiling and lookin at me

"Oh bitch that's the twins , they got money" she said walkin towards the car

Sky was 20 and always had me hot on her tail following behind her , anything she did I did with her and anyone she hung out with I was on her side hanging with the too.