I Am The Bad Girl [Completed]

Chapter 10

I hate this day. Why? I am punished because I still continued bullying other students.. I need to bring these books to the library. There is one box left and students look at me.

They give pity on me. I don't need pity, cause I have no pity to other people. I don't understand why I always say hate. I guess everyday I always says that.

"Uh too heavy still I can manage to carry." I said to myself and carry the books inside the box.

"Let me help you!" Anne said and get the half
"No!"
"I already did." She said
"Do you think I need your help? I don't need it. I don't need your help Anne."
"But I want to help, whether you like it or not."

"Don't help her Anne if she doesn't want. Your just wasting your time." A voice said
"Cyrus!. Shut up, I want to help her." Anne said to him

Um what's going on? Are they friends? Or they just know each other.
"Yeah Cyrus is right. I can manage to carry this stuff, without you. I don't need your pity." I said and started to walk leaving her behind

*Flashback*

When I was Grade 5. "Hey Airish, let me help you!"
"Thanks Tina!."

She helped me digging the plants. We were friends and in school she always sit beside me, eat with me.

"Hey Airish I need help for this!" She said
I teach her how, actually this is our homework. When its was time for checking, my notebook is gone.

I really cried for it for I got zero score. Tina gives sympathy at me.. I'm happy she's perfect to our homework.

One day the the top 5 was posted in the bulletin. I wasn't one of those.. Tina is the top one but I'm happy for her. I congratulate her and you know what she did.

Never talk to me cause I'm a loser. I'm not intelligent, and she told me that she was just using me. She throw my homework so that I get zero score. They keep on hurting me. For short victim of bullying too. But I don't care there's anger in my heart.

That made me angry and I hate friends. I don't want to have real one, I don't trust them, I don't take seriously friends starting when I was Grade 6.

My father was really angry, that he spank me. He scolded me and now I'm in a rush to be an honor student. Let the world see that I'd be one. But he never cares.

When I'm in grade 6 I start to argue, to bully students. I'm still top one but my father have no attention to my hard work, never really cared for it. I hate it, I hate friends, I hate it.

I really do hate it, humans are really like that...

*End of flashback*

After I put the books in the library. I wipe my sweat..
"She's a bully right? Poor thing." A girl murmurs

"Kindly please shut your mouth up?" I asked
"Why don't you stop hurting others Airish?" Vanessa asked
"Don't even care, tsk. Cowards!." I said

They were hit to the word I said. Cowards. Someone grab my arms. Anne?!.
"What are you doing Anne?" I asked
She just smiled.

I sob.. "Let her go Anne!" Cyrus said in front of us. He was just alone..
"Cowards? I guess you are. Hurting others could be coward!" He said

Anne left me with him. "Why do you care huh?" I ask and crossed my arms
"You know what, your insecure aren't you?" He asked
"Huh me? Insecure. I rather be dead than insecure." I said calmly

"Then why do you like hurting others?"
"Huh, because they look funny." I said
"Really?"

"I don't need to explain it to you, cause your not even my father."
He shrug..

Duh I don't care. "I need to go. I hate people!"
"But your one!" He said
"No I'm not. I was an animal." I said and run away

I was just kidding when I say I was an animal. I guess an excuse, but something that's part of my heart says that I am an animal, since no one cares about me except my mom. Real Mom, who died..

I don't need to tell it. Maybe my tears will run like they are having a racing. I just hate that I would be the center of attention. I really hate to be attached to other people except to my father. But he doesn't care, all he knows he want me on top, but if I'm on top one. He doesn't went to the stage to put a medal in me.

Still its useless to be an honor student. His busy, but I understand it. I encounter hardships in my life, I'm a bad girl outside but inside I am not.