Since You've Been Gone

What I'd Rather Be

A lot of people envy me.

But do I like it? of course not.

I'd rather be looked up to than be envied of.

I'd rather be an inspiration to others and keep them going on.

I want to be someone who can be a friend to those who are having a hard time to get through. Not someone who can be used for comfort and throw me away like I'm just some Kleenex tissue once they're done.

I can be your crying shoulder when you need me.

I can be a friend and be sincere. 

I want to feel needed and useful.

I can help you. But in return, be my friend.

Because deep inside, I only needed you to stay by my side.

I also needed a supporter.

Someone who will be there to comfort me when I'm down. 

A shoulder to cry on.

I'm just lonely and I don't want anyone else to feel the way I am feeling.

I just wanted to help. 

Please don't leave me because it hurts to be true and honest. 

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