The Dealers Daughters

31~Kole

"How are you feeling today Nikole?"

"I've had better days."

"Still having nightmares?" I nod my head yes and a stray tear falls.

Last night was one of the worst nightmares I've ever had. I relived every detail of what happened the first time I was raped in 7th grade. Something I never thought I'd think about again, but scary thing is I dreamed it like it had just happened.

"Yeah, but I'll get over it I'm a big girl."

"Kole can I ask you something without upsetting you?"

"Sure"

"Growing up did you ever have someone to talk to, like someone you told everything to or did you keep everything in."

"I keep everything I thought was important to myself, or my bestfriend. My mom never knew and still doesn't know anything about me and neither does my father, so me being pregnant was a big surprise to him. He never knew about the first time I was raped, he never knew about me loosing my virginity, he never knew about any of my sexual partners and I plan on keeping it that way. They rather judge me using the stuff that they hear from peoples kids and parents instead of sitting down and talking to me about stuff."

She nods like she knows what I'm talking about, like she can relate but in all actuality she's just taking this stuff in so that she can go back to her friends and be like you'll never guess what this girl told me today.. And her and the rest of her psychologist friends can compare stories.

Once the hour is up I get in my car and drive towards the trap but not before stopping to get something to eat from chick-fil-a. I order my regular and stuff some waffle fries into my mouth while I drive. When I pull up I'm greeted by some of the boys and I head straight downstairs to get dressed. I don't think I'll ever stop selling even while I'm pregnant. I spot Niko sitting at the bar tossing a shot glass back and forth between his hands.

"Wuss wrong lil bro." He chuckles and shakes his head,

"Tamia cheated on me." I clench my fist and opening and closing it back slowly trying to calm the anger inside of me brewing to snap.,

"With who?"

"Some small nigga iono his name."

I shake my head and rub his back before getting up to go and get dress, yeah imma have to go pay this lil bitch a visit ion play when it comes to my brother, Nikos always been there for us, and he'll shoot on sight if anything was to go down or happen to us, so just know that I got him like he got me.

I throw on a pair of light wash trues, red and black Y&R T-shirt, and my Flu Game 12's before tossing my hair into a ponytail and placing my gun in my waist band.

"See you later Niko"

"Be safe midget."

"Promise I will."

I walk out and head towards Tamia house. She lives in the ghetto for real the neighborhood that everyone from my neighborhood claims to be from, but are no where near it, plus were separated from it by two sets of railroad tracks, so I don't get why they don't just claim our neighborhood.

When I pull into her driveway her little brother, marquise, runs towards the car.

"Wussup outlaw?" I nod my head at him and get out of the car pulling my shirt down making sure to cover the small Pudge forming.