posted: feb 13, 2017
I used to wake up to music
playing outside my door;
i always thought that it was him
so i crept out to the floor
but when i went to look,
i found it wasn't him
and so once again,
my tears were on the brim
of falling
like i had for him
once
it was simply a loud rock mix tape
playing on repeat;
but it reminded me of him
the startling and thumping beat
almost like my heart when i fell for him
once
he had left again
and down more tears trickled
yet he always came back to me
i knew his heart was fickle
i knew that i was a bother
to everyone around
and i knew his love was counterfeit
but to him, i was bound
not only did he maul my body
he tampered with my heart too
but before my love was strong,
for him
once
everything reminded me of him
those days; anything in my way
the way he would get angry quickly
the way he would quip away
i knew he was frustrated
the love we had was faded
i would've done anything to make him stay
once
i was docile; you liked to dominate
some would say we fit just perfect
but to me, love isn't about dictating
its the essence of balance we depict
yet somehow
i wouldn't let go
i was scared to
i didn't know
that he had found someone
and she took him away
and then i was alone
as the darkest of a day
i missed him
once
and i felt like i was dying
slowly dying of grief and despair
everyday i woke up again
thinking i was a waste of air
every single day, at night
i entreated God,
"If you can hear me, take me away,
please, i am too flawed
i am too insignificant,
the fact that i'm not good enough
should be a substantial hint,"
a delicate flower in a world of tough
i needed him
once
but then one day
i met you
and that day, you met me
and when our bond
grew so strong
i knew you were for me
i knew our love had a lot of potential
it would blossom into the prettiest of love stories
the way you spoke was tactful
prettier than the most morning glories
and any desire i had to leave the world
was slowly starting to flee
running away like a fugitive
running with the breeze
you made me feel alive again,
you made me feel so new
the way you consolidated all my uncertainty
was the strongest glue
i was falling for you
today, i woke up to music
playing outside my door
i had thought that it was you
so i crept out onto the floor
so when i went to look,
i saw you dancing there
dancing to the music
with your long pink hair everywhere
i stood there, watching you prance about
i stood there watching you dance
you were more beautiful than the sounds i heard
i stood there in a trance
it was simply a soft aesthetic mix tape
playing on repeat;
but it reminded me of you
the passionate and thumping beat
just like my heart when i fall for you
again and again
everyday
i know the day we met will soon
be just an anecdote from the past
but to me, in my mind,
it will always last
your smile can light up anyone's darkest day
your smile shines so brightly
your smile is as radiant as the sun
yet you shine much more nicely
everything reminds me of you
these days; anything in my way
the way you treat me like a princess
and i do you the same
i know our love will never end
the love will never fade
i know that you will always stay
and i will do the same
