Black Roses Red

Chapter Nine

Evan didn't show up to school on Monday, I couldn't help but wonder if it was because of me, because of what I'd said to him the day before, surely not I thought to myself, it couldn't have an impact this big on him. 

Without him, I felt miserable, and with the way she was acting, Angie definitely felt miserable too.

"Why isn't he here today? Do you think it's cause of our date? do you think I did something wrong? Was I too pushy?" She asked me, as if I had all the answers to her questions.

"No, of course not Angie, maybe he's just sick." I was trying to convince myself that that was it, I didn't want to think that it was because of what I'd said. 

"Sick? You think so?" She looked so hopeful, I couldn't crush her and tell her the truth. I couldn't just tell her that although Evan likes her, he doesn't have any feelings toward her in the way she wants him to, I couldn't tell her that she's wishing for something that will never be hers, that she's just wasting her time wanting him.

"Yeah, Angie, what else could it be?" I sighed, all she seemed to want to talk about was Evan, and will what had almost happened on Friday, between me and him, I couldn't help but feel this tiny pang of guilt, well to tell the truth, a huge pang of guilt.

"I'm going to go see him after school." I knew this was the last thing that Evan would want, but I couldn't tell her so. In my heart, I knew that one day Angie would find out the truth about Evan, and she'd be so hurt.

"Will you come with me?" Her pink lips spread like the sun on the horizon, she was innocent, and he was going to break her heart.

I didn't want to go see Evan, not knowing what I knew. The last thing I wanted to do was see his face, his beautiful face, and those gorgeous green eyes that I knew and loved, oh so well. Stop, I thought, I need to stop thinking of Evan this way, I forced my mind to listen to me, but I couldn't stop the lingering thoughts of Evan  to go away.

"So what do you say?" Angie spoke, breaking me out of the trance I was in.

"Huh?" My mind went blank, I couldn't remember a single thing apart from Evan, mhmm Evan...

"You're so stupid sometimes, are you going to come with me to see Evan?" She sounded annoyed and irratated.

"Uh,..Okay, I'll come." Just then the end of break bell rang. Angie linked her arm through mine, and pulled me across the hall to our next class.

I tried to keep my mind off the idea that I'd have to sit next to Channay, the school's biggest bully ever. Channay made it particularly obvious that she didn't want to sit next to me either.

"Miss, I'm not sitting next to that tramp again." She complained, as soon as she entered the english room. 

"Channay! Please for once just do as your told!" Everyone was scared of Channay, even most of the teachers were.

"But miss, think about it from my point of view." She rolled her eyes, and placed her hand on her right hip.

"How can she think about it from your point of view? I doubt she can stick her head down that far in her ass." I spoke getting sick of her. 

The class went silent, then everyone started laughing.

"Owned." One of the boys said, even the teacher had a smirk on her face, and Channay looked gobsmacked but finally excepted her defeat.

As soon as our third period lesson started, I began to drift off into daydreams of him, of Evan. I just couldn't seem to understand why, this one guy was having such an impact on me. I'd seen guys that were way better looking then he is, yet all his facial flaws seem to make him more perfect. I liked Evan for all his imperfections.

I closed my eyes and let myself mind think about what might have happened in Evan had kissed me, and if Angie wasn't in the picture. Would we be together? would we be boyfriend and girlfriend? would I be happier? I snapped my eyes open again, and refused to let any thoughts of Evan re-enter my mind.

Time seem to move painfully slow, and the closer it got to the end of the day, the more nervous and anxious I got, would Evan want to see me? Would he forgive me for the way I acted?

Finally, the end of the day arrived, and I could feel butterflies floating around in my stomach. I couldn't help but feel extremely happy.

Angie quickly grabbed my hand.

"Look, Evan!" She squealed, pointing in the direction of the crimson school gate, and sure enough Evan was standing there, with a grin on his face.

There was nothing I could do to stop myself from running to him, absolutely nothing. As soon as I saw those beautiful exotic green eyes, I rushed towards him, and swung my arms around his neck. 

"I'm sorry." I pulled away, but his arms remained tied around my waist. He knew what I meant and he nodded, pulling me back into the hug.

Angie shoved me away from Evan, glaring at me whilst doing so, and jumped onto Evan, he twisted her around, like the way they do in movies. 

I felt a pang of jealousy in my heart, but averted my eyes to the floor, knowing that I should just let them be, but soon enough I was disturbed and completely forgot about my thoughts.

"Well, well, well, little bitch over here thinks she's so clever doesn't she?" It was Channay, I should of known she was planning on getting me back for my earlier cuss. 

"What's your problem?" 

"Hmm..let me think about it...you're my problem." She replied smartly.

"What have I ever done to you?" I was in no mood, to have a fight with Channay, especially not now, what would Hattie say?

"Oh shut up whore, look at you, you had your hands all over Angie's boyfriend, and you think you're all that but no one likes you." She spat in my face, her arms reached out and she pushed me backwards.

"Hey leave it. You have no right to talk to her like that." Evan stepped infront of me shielding me from any further assault she threw at me.

"It's not like its not true thought is it? Someone's needs to tell her what people really think about her." 

"Leave it Evan, don't get involved." Angie pulled at Evan's hand moving him from his place infront of me.

"But Ang-" Angie quickly planted a kiss on his lips stopping his words.

"Just go back to where you came from, no one wants you, I bet your own mum didn't want you because you're nothing more than a skank, a skank that no one wants." She pushed me a little with every word she spoke. 

Memories of my father came back, of what he did to me, of what he called me, and I felt tears prick the back of my eyes. 

I couldn't stop myself, I lifted my fist and punched her, and I didn't stop there, I punched her several times, and then I pulled back, realising that I'd let Eve take over me again, I'd let Eve hurt someone again.

Before, anyone reacted to what I'd done, I ran down the road, and into the forest near our school, I could hear Evan behind me yelling my name.

"Kirsty! Wait!" 

"No, leave me alone." I sobbed, running further into the forest.

"Kirsty please." He yelled, he was getting closer

"Just go back to Angie please!" I screamed back.

"Eve stop!" He said in his normal voice knowing this would make me stop.

I stopped dead in my tracks, I felt all the breath being sucked out of me, he knows, all this time, he knew that I wasn't Kirsty. He knew that I was Eve Little. The Murderer.