truly, madly, deeply

Part 7

its christmas eve, the weeks have gone o fast and phils seems pretty excited for it. i sit in the lounge as he walks in the rrom wearing his lion onesie with his messy hair stretching his arms giving out a silent but exaggerated yawn. his eyes are blue and full of enthusiasm he looks happy.

i got the promis ring he other day, i wanted to make it like Phils personality so i put a green and blur crystal on it. i hope he likes it. i go in the kitchen and light my favourite candle " cinamon wind" it smells exactly like it sounds the woods in autumn and there is a big gust of wind comming from a massive cinabun. thats a bit exagerate but its close enough.

me and phil have an over due  movie day, we lay on the sofa watching old disney movies like the lady and the tramp and the beauty and the beast. i snuggle up to him using up all my strength trying not to just burst out saying "PHIL LESTER I LOVE YOU!" and kiss him, but of course i resist.

the day goes by fast enough and i go to my room and think about all the things that could go wrong with this. maybe i should call it off.what if he doesnt like me like that? so many ifs. but its better getting it out, he might love me back. i imagine the day with over a million different scenarios in my head its so unreal.