feel ➳ clifford (on hold)

two

{ In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take }

It has been two days since the dinner and all i did was think about michael's compliment on my dress and calum's words that brought my hair on its ends. Rhaea had a crush on Luke. The blonde haired blue eyed boy. He has the surfer boy kind of look. She and Luke had exchanged numbers. Ross had the brunette haired girl's number. I found out that her name is Natalie Adams. She seemed like the typical cheerleader and mean girl. From the first time i met her, i'd never want to be friends with her. And she looks like bad news.

She's got a ridiculously huge bow on her head for god knows for what. Tomorrow was a school day and i am very nervous. "Ryder." my mom called as she walked towards the kitchen area.

"Yeah Stacy?" i say and walked to where she was.

"I'm sorry for disturbing you, but could you give this to the neighbor across the street?" she says handing me the box that may contain a few pasteries or cupcakes. Ilooked at her then smiled, "Okay." And took the box from her. Today was a beautiful day and i was using a white top with a blue blazer and a pair of black skinny jeans not forgetting a fedora i got not long ago. I went out and walked over. Why i was 'okay' with sending the box is because Michael stays there. I felt my mom smile and probably tear for my sudden behavior of being nice to her.

Ever since i knew Michael for only a few hours, i've never been happier then before. I crossed the road and walked up the front yard and to the door. It opened to reveal one of the boys with the name Ashton. "Hello!" He smiles. He was shirtless and he was a mess. A hot mess.

"Hi." i smiled and looked inside. "Um, my mom gave this to you." i say feeling a bit dissapoined that this isnt the house that i thought michael lived in.

"Thank you." he smiles at me widely and opened the box. "Whoa, brownies." He smiles and takes one in his mouth. "Delicious. Oh my god." he says and takes another and puts it in his mouth again. i smiled and took a step back.

"Bye." I say and waved at him. hr smiled and attempted to wave back but the brownie in his hand fell. He ignored it and waved at me with a wide smile. After turning around. My head fell. I just- Michael wasnt there.I was hoping for him to be there and opened the door. Not Ashton. All i could do is think of the things i nee-

"Ryder!" Someone called. I turned around to see a shirtless Michael. My eyes widened and i ran up to him. "Hi." he pants.

I smiled. "Hi."

"You look beautiful?" He complimented. I felt the heat on my cheeks rise and i look away. "Aw, look you're blushing." He smiles. I looked down to my feet and pushed him playfully. "Hey are you busy?"

I raised my brows, "why'd you ask?" I say. He smiles.

"I thought of touring you around and maybe collect your uniform before tomorrow?" He smiles. "You're in the same school as us right?" He says. i looked at him confused. "Summer High?" he asks. My mouth formed a 'o' shape and i nodded. "Okay." He smiles. "I'll come in ten, go get your things." he smiles. I nodded and turned around, walking back to my house with a huge grin on my face.

A boy is actually bringing me out. I have never felt this excited. He was like the fourth person in my life that made me have this butterflies. But this time, the butterflies were crazy. i went in my house and closed the door and stood behind it, my back leaning on it. i bit my lip and did a mini victory dance. "What are you doing retard?" I heard Ross say as he goes down the stairs with Rhaea following him from behind.

"Dancing." i cheered as i jumped around. Never having this feeling.

"Oh, has michael asked you out?" Rhaea asked with a smile on her face. My smiled grew wider and again, the heat on my cheeks were hotter then ever. "Oh my god, this causes for a celebration." She said again and danced with me.

After a few seconds, i stopped and frowned. "But it isnt a date." i say.

"Its a sign he likes you, duh." she says rolling her eyes. i smiled and nudged her.

"i better get my things before he c-" the bell rings. my eyes widened and i ran up the stairs getting my cigarettes, wallet and my phone. of course not forgetting my earpiece. i turned around shocked to see michael the entrance of my room. i bit my lip and looked at him, "hi." i smiled.

"hi." he says and looks at me up and down. "ready to go?" he asks. i nodded. we walked down the stairs. "oh, calum and natalie is coming along." he says and i looked at him.

"natalie?" i questioned.

he nodded, "yeah. my girlfriend."

the smile that i swore was on my face faded and my usual dull look came on my face. "oh." i say faking a smile. "g-great?" i stuttered and walked down. michael smiled and continued walking down the stairs as i took my own sweet time. rhaea and ross that was waiting at the stairs below gave me questioning looks.

i took out my phone and entered our group chat quickly typing in.

he has a girlfriend.

rhaea and ross's phone sounded and they looked at my message gasping. next i typed in.

and its that, natalie adams.

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hey hey hey hey hey :) reedit :) here ya go :) playlist for this book is on the multimedia area :) the song 'feel' by sleeping with sirens is the book's theme song. and the song 'kill me' by the pretty reckless sums up ryder's life :) so yeah.

bye bye x