My Lauren Carter Obsession

Chapter 5- 'Don't ever speak to me, don't talk to me, NOTHING!'

It's been about three months since I've been hanging out with Ashton, everyday I spend at school I just want to get out and run in Ashton's arms, yeah yeah we're dating. I mean it's not like I forgot about Alex, oh no no no, he completely forgot me. I don't think I've actually talked to him ever since that Friday. I hang with Sam, Izzy, Kyle, and Damion but then when Alex is around he just ignores or talks to me in really short words, I don't care if he's mad or something, I guess it was about the fight we had but I can't really tell what's up with him. Every time I call, text, or even try to talk to him it's all blank. Just..at least show it to me instead of  hiding it with a pretty face...

Well it's June, the hot days. And almost my birthday, well I mean in a month but whatever. I'm still keeping low but not really doing anything much since I might well stay cool then stay dehydrated. Ashton and I have been talking and hanging out so much lately that my mom can't keep track of when I'm leaving out of the house to see him, she just says 'bye' and then there starts the day.

As I'm walking out of school trying to keep up with my books I see Alex near a tree and decided that I should go over there. As I walk by he has this grudge and keeps looking at his phone. 'Hey Alex, long time no talk from you, what's up?' I say, sitting next to him. The next thing he did surprised me and I literally was stunned. 'Get away from me,' he says as he gets out of the seat and storms off not mentioning anything. I chase off after him trying to keep up with his pace.

'Alex, where are you going, stop! I just want to talk!' I say, running as fast as I can while he's still running. Alex takes a full stop and drops his things hard on the floor before getting into my face so close it was hard not to look away. 'Lauren, why is it that your chasing after me, go get your boy toy and leave me the hell alone.' He says, taking small circles around his things and then pacing. 'I liked you so much but then you just had to do it, rub it right in my face, why the fuck would you- AHHH!' He says, then screams as if he's in pain and then couches on the ground in tears.

'Alex, what in the world are you talking about, I haven't even said a word to you in three months, THREE!  And your getting mad at me, wow just nice.' I say, after I walk off past him getting angry myself. 'Lauren come back I didn't mean it stop! Come on please.' He yells off, trying to get me to come back wasn't something I wanted to do, what I actually wanted to do was apologize so bad, the fact that I didn't know that he liked me killed me and to think that he told me now, he was really late but I kept running off.

He catches up to me and takes my hand and spins me around so that I'm inches away from his face to mine and close to him to that I couldn't move. I didn't want to, I missed this...I missed him, so badly. I kissed him, I did, and he kissed me back. He sets me on the porch edge backing me up so that we weren't apart and he pulls me close and kisses my neck. 'Lauren I missed this kiss from the first day, from those three months, till now.' He says, as he wraps his arm around my waist and trails his arms under my shirt while I tug his hair and he lets out a little moan as he kisses my neck and arms. Wow...I missed him badly... We let go and look into each others eyes as he rests his head on my shoulder as I stroke his hair. Then I jump in shock as to what I've done and when I turn around I see the one person who was waiting near my steps...Ashton.

'Really...REALLY, this is what you cheat on me with!?!' Ashton says, as he drops the flowers on the ground. I run after him knowing what I did was wrong but was a choice I made. 'Ash wait cmon hold up,' I say, running after him taking his hand and pulling him around, he jerks it right away and keeps walking.

'NO,' he says, turning around and looking directly into my face. 'Why would you, we dated for so long and this is how you wanted to end it. It could of been real different but I think I'm going to hate this ending Lauren.' He says, shaking his head and glaring, 'It was a mistake talking to you, dating you, or even speaking to you that day.' He says, letting go of my embrace on his hand and walking off, but coming back, while I turn to see Alex running up I turn back around to see Ashton's face.

He looked so mad, like really mad, I couldn't even use the words to describe how mad and hurt he felt. 'Don't ever speak to me, don't talk to me, NOTHING, FUCK YOU LAUREN!' He adds, as I sit there to cry so hard I see Alex storming to him and turning him around. 'Why the hell are you getting at her, she's the most amazing person ever, so what, she kissed me, I kissed her back, I wanted her too, and if she wanted to I'm not gonna blow at her damn face-' he was cut off when Ashton took a blow to Alex's jaw, looking really pissed, Alex clocks him but stomps on him with his foot, while Ashton punches Alex right in the eye and pushes him over. The two of them fighting was making me pissed off and I really just wanted to go home. 'STOP, BOTH OF YOU STOP!' I pushed both of them away, trying to almost tear themselves from limbs I walked home with Alex and Ashton left with a bloody lip and face. We never talked after that day....

When Alex and I made it to his place we went upstairs where we tried to clean off the bruises and cuts from his face and hands. I felt so mad but at the same time really annoyed and just waning to cry, but I couldn't, not right now, I had to just forget it and live up to what happened, 'Oww, your really pressing hard,' he chuckles, trying to lighten up the mood a little bit but I couldn't. 'Aww come on Carter don't be like that. It was just punches and cuts that's all,' he says, trying to get me to stop looking serious as I still don't say anything but keep wrapping bandages.

'Lauren...I'm sorry,' he says, a little upset with a hint of scared in his voice.

'For what, what the hell are you even apologizing?' I say, wrapping a little too hard in not concentrating. I stop and look at him, even when he's still beaten he cares, he doesn't even care to look at how bad he looks right now, and then I start laughing. Not happy or sad laughter, just neutral laughing and then stop and hug him, hug him for doing that, for being the first person I knew in the town in the first place and then not talking to him for so many months just to know now that he was the only person I knew closest to well.

I should of done this a long time ago but I didn't, now I'm not holding back as he hugs me back. 'But Laur I am really sorry though, I didn't mean to go in on him like that,' he says, rubbing my back lightly. I didn't care how hard he went in on him, I care that he was actually here. Just right here with me. 'It's fine,' I say, as I continue to keep smiling at him while he smiles right back....

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If you had never come, I'd have never learned to laugh.
My sandwiches would still be whole, and never cut in half.
My voice would have never changed to high, or low.
You would love my favorite band, and I would never know.

If you had never come, the rain would feel so cold.
I would have lived alone forever, with a secret never told.
My tears would have no place to go, but down my cheeks in sorrow.
I'd have my own clothes, instead of yours to borrow.

If you had never come, my happiness would not have last.
There would be no names upon my bright orange cast.
I would be left alone, when I stopped to tie my shoes when walking.
No one to whisper to, as the teacher just keeps talking.

If you had never come, I would have never hopped a fence.
Doing something wrong would have never made much sense.
I never would have tasted the stars in the dead of night.
But instead, you are here with me forever, holding me tight.

From: Reilly Gandell