Words from the Heart

You Don't Want To Love Me

'You don't want to love me'
I remind you
You ask me why and I tell you
I am a broken person
To broken to love.
I tell you how I can't trust myself alone in a room with a pair of scissors.
I tell you that I isolate myself to the point where I only talk to 1 or 2 people.
I tell you how I can't trust myself alone sometimes
How I have anger issues that have been resurfacing
And how I am dealing with them
I tell you that you don't want me
And you see you can do better.
I don't get a response
Not for over 5 minutes
I can see you read it
I check Facebook and see
You found someone better than me
I knew it was coming
But it doesn't hurt any less.
I say sorry I am a burden and congratulate you on your new girlfriend
I don't let you know it hurts
Because at least you won't be in pain.
I guess I want someone to say that they have fallen for me
Even when I isolate myself
And for someone to see my scars and scratches and still fall for me
I want someone to love me even with my anger, and it isn't like it would be turned on them, it would be on me
I knew you didn't want to love me
You don't want to love a broken person
Someone with scars and scratches
Someone who can't trust themselves alone sometimes