Lately I've been winning battles left and right. But even winners can get wounded in the fight. People say that I'm amazing. I'm strong beyond my years. But they don't see inside of me. I'm hiding all the tears
It's true, right?
Many people would think that we are strong enough to deal with the problems and challenges that the world has to offer but at the end of the day, we look up and surrender everything to Him.
At the end of the day, we are exhausted and drained and we have to rest. That's a fact. Even if you claim to be the strongest person in the world, you still have to recharge and re-energize before dealing with another battle.
Some battles can cause us extreme pain, not only physically but emotionally and spiritually. It would take us some time to regain our confidence and strength. But there are battles that would just tell us that we have to give up. Straight in the face, it tells you to give up. Even if you wanted to fight harder, you just can't. Your mind is conditioned to fight but your body doesn't want to coordinate with you. You are positive that you can beat the state that you are in but negative results will show that you can't beat it.
"Feeling sentimental huh?"
I smiled hearing those words. Not facing the speaker yet though. But I know I will never get tired of hearing that voice. That voice kept me up when I was feeling down. That voice helped me get through the rough times and the darkest times. That voice served as my light. That sweet voice says nothing but admiration and inspiration. And, I don't want the owner of that voice to stop talking.
The owner of that beautiful voice has been with me longer than I can ever imagine. I was not expecting her to stay this long because I know I won't. I sure am lucky to have her in my life. I've pushed her away many times before, but she stayed. She didn't let me go. She does not want to let me go. Yup, that's what she said.
I felt an arm around me making my heart pump faster. Every time she does this, I feel my heart rate raising. I'm still not used to this. Having her with me and being with her always brings different creatures inside my stomach.
"Really? Kilig pa din?"
She said laughing. I let out a chuckle and pulled her closer. I want to feel her warmth all the time. She's like my human blanket or teddy bear that I can't sleep without. She's been one of the reasons why I keep on fighting and will still fight. Though I don't know how long I can fight for her.
"Always."
I replied and felt her smiling since her face was pressed against my neck. But after a while, nararamdaman kong nababasa na din yung leeg ko.
Wet kisses? Someone's feeling kinky today. Haha
I wish they were wet kisses but unfortunately hindi. She's crying. These past few months, lagi ko ata siyang napapaiyak. Maybe because of the song reaching its climax with the words, "They don't know that I come running home when I fall down. They don't know who picks me up when no one is around. I drop my sword and cry for just a while (Look up for His smile). Cause deep inside this armor. The warrior is a child."
But I know the real reason though. Let's go back to where it all started.
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"Hi! I'm Alyssa and this is my beautiful girlfriend, Dennise! Say Hi, baby!"
I said while recording through my phone. My girl's, beside me and we're both feeling giddy. It's our first time to go here in Palawan and our anniversary.
" Heeeyyy!"
She shouted with her hands thrown up in the sky haha.
I know, I know. We're both girls. Is it even legal to have a relationship with a girl? Who cares? Kapag mahal mo, mahal mo! Tama naman po di ba?
