The mistakes we make | Justin Bieber

1: meet and greets

"This is it, the moment I'm meeting him"

The day was April 22th 2013 I had been waiting in line for an hour.
The walls wasn't thick so I heard all the screaming girls when they met him, it was nerve racking to know I was the last one to go in there.

Finally it was my turn, I walked around a corner and was greeted by Justin's bodyguard, Mikey.
I showed him my wristband that said "meet and greets" and he let me in.
I walked past Mikey and in to the room.
And then I saw him and stopped, just looked at him staring at me.

I felt how the tears were built up within me, he was really there, the person I had looked up to for 4 years, the person I had been thinking about 24/7 every day, my biggest inspiration.
Justin Drew Bieber was standing right in front of me.
I couldn't believe he was there, I was so happy and had the biggest smile on my face, but that was until I saw the look on his face.

He wasn't happy, he smiled but the smile didn't go along with his eyes.
He looked tired, like he hadn't slept in days. His eye was red and swollen and his posture was bad.
"Hey" he said with a fake smile.
I just looked at him, I knew he was going through a rough time but not that it was that bad.

I was debating with myself if I should say what was important to have said and take the risk of being rejected or if I would just go with the "omg I love you, you saved me". Not that it wasn't true because it was, I just felt like that wasn't as important.

"You don't have to give me a fake smile, I can see that your smile isn't real."

He looked confused, I was probably the first one who ever said that to him at a meet and greets.

"I know you probably get this a lot but I'm proud of how far you have come. But I can see that you're not happy anymore."
I started. He just looked at me and I saw how tears formed in his eyes.

"I can see all this pictures of you clubbing and hooking up with girls. I don't know if it's because you like it or if it's your way to forget about your problems for a moment, I know people do that with alcohol. I have friends that have had their hearts broken and they thought drinking was the solution to heal their hearts again.
But it isn't, you are just punching the problems aside for the moment.
You have to take care of them someday"

Tears escaped his eyes, I walked up to him and hugged him. Tears started to stream down my face too.

"I know I'm not someone to tell you what to do, but I care about you Justin. Even if you want me here or not, I will always be here for you."

We stood there crying in each other arms. It broke my heart to see him like that. He was broken.

Mikey walked up to us.
"Do you want me to take her out?"
"No" Justin said and got out of the hug. He then whispered something in his bodyguards ear.

Justin turned around to me and gave me a little smile.

"It's usually the fans that cries, not me. I'm sorry"
He said and looked down on his feet.
"For what?"

"I don't want you guys to see my like that"

"Like what? Broken?"
He looked in to my eyes and than down to his feet again.

"There's nothing you have to hide Justin. If you're not feeling well then you shouldn't have to hide it."

"I don't want you guys to see me broken because I wanted to be your hero."

"But you are, you have saved me so many times. It's been so many days were I just wanted to give up, but when I listened to your music everything seemed like it would be alright."  I said and looked him in his eyes.

"What's your name?" He then asked and whipped away some of his tears.

"Oh right I forgot to tell you. I'm Sophie."

"That's a beautiful name for a beautiful girl. Should we take this pictures now?"

He said and turned to the camera.
I just looked at him and studied him.
His jawline was perfect sculptured, his eyes was even more beautiful in reality and he had some tattoos covering his arms, even his flaws was beautiful.
Justin turned my way and looked me in the eyes. A flash went of and the picture was taken.

"What seat do you have?" Justin asked.

"Golden circle" I said, I couldn't wait till I got to see him on stage it was magical on screen so it had to even more magical in real life.

"I will see you then" he said and winked at me. We hugged each other one last time.

"Mikey can you help her out to her seat?" Justin asked Mikey, he nodded and led me out of the room.

"Goodbye Justin" I said turning around.
I was happy I told him what I wanted to say, it turned out better then I thought.
Justin just smiled and waved at me.
I then walked out of the room.