Breaking the Band (Narry) -SLOW UPDATES-

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Harry POV

I woke up and for a second everything was blurry but once it all came into vision I saw Louis holding Niall as he cried silently into his shoulder. Louis looked at me and nudged Niall who looks up and wiped his tears and sniffed. Then reality set in, I didn't die, I was still alive.

I wasn't sure how to feel, I mean first off I can't even die right. Also Niall's crying over something stupid that I did. "Harry you were pregnant...." Niall looked at me hoping I didn't know, but I did. I found out a couple days after he got with Melissa, but I was too scared to tell him, I didn't want to be rejected again for being a freak.

I nodded, "I'm sorry for not telling you Niall." I looked at him, "The baby's gone. I could've been a dad and you did that and now it's dead." I looked at him confused, was he really upset over the dead baby? What about the fact that I was alive? Didn't that matter at all to him? It's a fetus for christ sake it wasn't alive anyway. He can probably make another with Melissa if it really means that much to him.

"It was a girl..." Niall looked at me, "We were gonna have a daughter. It was selfish to attempt suicide."

"It was selfish to tell me you and Melissa would only go on one date. It was selfish for you to get mad at me being jealous, I'm very insecure Niall. You know that better than anyone." I looked at him, "But the fans like you together. Since she ships Larry. At times like this I wish I was with Louis instead."

"I'm gonna let you guys argue while I go try to talk to Eleanor." Louis said getting up and walking out, which was no use, Eleanor was so angry with how him and Niall were treating me and I doubt she'll get back with him after all this.

"Harry, I was doing it for promotion, I don't even like Melissa. I'm just doing it cause it upsets you."

"Well you obviously don't care about my feelings. If I died you'd probably be celebrating." I knew it was true, he would.

"Are you kidding me Harry? I was so upset when I found out, I'm still upset because it's my fault you did it. But just because I'm not in a relationship with you doesn't give you a right to take your own life. If you died I'd never forgive myself, the band would be done with, and I'd probably go with you soon enough too. Your life isn't just your own, what you do to yourself affects everyone around you. What would the fans to? They're so upset that Zayn left could you imagine if you died. You're a bloody idiot Harry." He started to sob again and texted some on his phone then walked out the room.

I've never in my life seen Niall so upset. But it was probably put on, why would Niall care about me? I'm useless. There isn't anything good about me.

The nurse came in and Louis followed in with her. "Nialls took and uber and has gone back to his house." Louis smiled at me and I nodded. The nurse did some checks on me, then gave me a card to see a therapist, which I dont know why it's not useful to me in any way.

Me and Louis walked out and got into the car. He started to cry, I'm so done with everyone crying today. "She left me Harry..." he sobbed. "She just left."

"I mean if you weren't being a twat to me and taking Nialls side maybe El-"

"I don't think that's why Harry. She usually joins in on those jokes." He started to drive off and pulled up in my driveway. "Liam said he's going to come to check on you." I nodded, knowing that Liam cares about us all and I believe he'd be the only one hurt if it worked and I wasn't shitty at everything, I was okay with having him take care of me.

I got out of the car and saw Louis drive off then I went back into the house. I laid on my bed and went to sleep again.