Breaking the Band (Narry) -SLOW UPDATES-

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-unedited-

Harry's POV

We started our chant in South Africa, I've been avoiding Niall since we had sex. I was really upset, he made me think I had him back but I didn't.

We ran out on stage and started with Clouds, it was going great, I stayed near Liam cause he made me feel safe. We went through songs until Liam started looking at signs. Louis and Niall were sat down at age stage and I was standing near Liam, but I was told by security to go sit at a stage, so I did. It sat with my back again Louis, then I felt a hand on my thigh, I recognised it as Niall hand and tried to pull it off but his grip got stronger and I could hear Hi giggling.

It was like a chant, an awful chant. Niall despised me, it wasn't a secret to me anymore. But I'm sure I hate myself more than he hates me.

It felt like Liam was going through sighs forever, but finally he was done and he sat next to me which forced Niall to remove his hand. "You holding up okay kid?" Liam whispered to me and I nodded, "I'm doing fine Liam thanks."

"If it helps just focus on the fans." He suggested and I smiled at him, "I will."

We started singing Little Things and I focused on the fans and getting them to sing along, instead of Niall who was strumming the guitar with his perfect fingers.

The rest of the show I spent looking at the fans, making jokes with them. Once in a while Niall would grab my bum but I would just ignore him and act like everything was okay. I went backstage with the rest of the band once it was over and grabbed a water bottle and sat at a table near the exit.

Niall sat next to me at the table so I just played with the hair tie around my wrist and pulled at it, it was another way of self harm I guess. I just kind of like the pain it inflicts on me as it hits my skin, I knew Niall wasn't paying attention to me, he was talking to Louis and Liam about something that happened during the show. We couldn't leave the venue till 2am when it was completely cleared but we weren't allowed back in the building either.

It was fine by me I guess, I just didn't want to be in this small tent with the boy who has been making me want to die so much. I heard a feminine voice and looked up, thankfully it was Sophia and not Melissa or I would've just shot myself them are there. I watched as Liam kissed her head and as they talked, then I felt Nialls hand on my thigh again, moving up and down. I bit my lip and looked at him.

I got up, making him remove his thigh and went to the portapoty, not caring to lock the door and sat down and cried. It was the only place I could be alone right now.

What was he doing to me? Why did he like to torture me so much?

I must of done something wrong, I mean there's no other answer for why he's acting like this. I went back to making the hair tie hit my wrist, I was doing it at a fast and hard pace till the tie broke and my wrist was bleeding.

I got up and sighed and went back out, hiding my arm behind my back and going to Louise's spot, she was there thankfully and I grabbed some of her tissues and dabbed it on my arm. I threw them away, I heard small feet run in and smiled at little Lux. "Uncle Hawwy!" She screamed to me as I picked her up and tickled her. She laughed and I laughed too.

Niall ran after her, and I set her down and quickly walked off again, not wanting to deal with him.

I was relived when we were finally allowed on the bus, but then got upset again when I walked on and saw Melissa and Niall already on the couch groping each other.