my depression book

why and how my life sucks ass

hi so im ariana and this is my depression book i probably aren't the BEST writer but i don't give a rats-ass and whatever I'm just here to write about my shitty life and btw if your a perv reading this fuck off and go read some five year olds fan fiction about 1 direction and how they read them bedtime stories at night.

well anyways,

before my shit-ton stressed and depressed of a life came around it was all perfect and whatever and it was just me, my big sister deziree, my mom, (and just like every other depressed as- fuck girl would say...)and my asshole of a dad. after i turned around 6 or 7, my parents fucked and out came my little sister eva or if you would call her by her real name, evangeline, and then i then became the middle child or as adults or parents would say "the ones where they feel the most excluded" like shut the fuck up did i say i was excluded.....NOPE! but anyways blah blah blah skip to when i turned about 10 y/o (for all you dumbasses like me y/o means year old) my dad started cheating on my mom and it was a hard time for me not because i was scared to shit or because i heard glass and things in my house shattering and breaking into pieces but because, my little sister had to be there to watch it just seeing her crying and saying i want mommy i want daddy made me feel like my family is breaking apart- which was and to actually hide both of us away from the fighting in my closet in my room and watch youtube videos but I've been in her shoes before because before eva came along my mom and so called asshole-of-a-dad (which he is) would fight a lot and one time my dad threw my mom down the stairs (no need to call the cops its already taken care of you over exaggerated bitches) <- its just a joke chill. I've always hide the fact that I'm nothing in this world and my whole family turned against each other in 4th and 5th grade because i know that if i hold it in ill be strong or its at-least what i thought but anyways holding it in does not make you strong it just holds you back and ya maybe some people can dis agree with that but from my perspective it doesn't work. until 6th grade came along. it was hell for me but ill get into that in the next chapter ill probably update tomorrow (if anyone even reads it) but ya ill get into the story more its 1:30 and I've been crying since 11:00 whatever I'm used to it i cry myself to sleep every night.

bye (: xoxo,

ariana