you and me...? a foah story

Noah's POV

CHAPTER FOUR
The bell rang, showing it time for history. Millie waves goodbye as she walked to biology which was was way across the school. "What do you have right now F-Finn...?" I say, walking to history class with Mrs. Dun. "Um... history, you?" He seemed so cool, I almost ran into a door as we walked. "H-History as well..." Finn smiled at me, as his hand "accidentally" brushed against mine. I blushed like mad, and I knew he could tell by the way I looked down at the tiled floor. "Follow me, if you want to..." Finn suddenly said, before the bell rang before we reached Mrs. Dun's class. I shrugged my shoulders, and followed him to the bathroom. omg... is he going to kiss me... is he going to hurt me... what is he going to do to me...? maybe he won't do anything and just use the bathroom... but why would he ask me to follow him... I thought as we walked to the bathroom, as my face showed no emotion. Compared to my thoughts, you can't really tell if I am thinking that much, I guess I just have a resting face. He walked into the bathroom, then looked back at me before I walked in. i don't know if we can trust him... sure we can, we like him... what if he doesn't? what if he does? what if he is just going to beat me up? what if he lied about being gay, and just wanted to pick on us for being gay? what if- I try to stop my thoughts there so I don't have a breakdown right in front of him. "You coming in?" He asks, snapping me out of my thoughts. "Y-Yeah..." I say, walking into the bathroom, and looking at him. what if he smokes, and he asks you to smoke as well? you lost your grandpa from cancer, would you really risk smoking even thought you could die? i am pretty sure you would do it, because you like him? or do you think you like him, just like you think you are gay? "U-Um... you don't s-smoke do you...?" I ask, scared in case he does smoke. oh, what if he drink? you lost your real mother from a drinking and driving accident. you would drink if you love him so much, wouldn't you? you would do anything if you love him, no matter what... "Why would I smoke? I don't feel like dying at my age, I think I am a little young if you ask me to be doing something like that." He says, looking at me. "T-Then do you d-drink...?" I say, looking at him. "Why would I ever do that? My great grandpa got into a car accident because of someone drinking and driving. We were very close, and he just had to go and die..." Finn looked down, and I couldn't help but feel a little bad bringing up the subject. "Look I am r-really sorry about bringing the subject..." I apologize right away, and then my thoughts came back just to haunt me. what a stupid move, bringing that up. now he doesn't like you. oh wait, he never liked you. nobody would like somebody as broken as you. your just a broken piece that nobody could ever love. all your friends are faking about being your friends. they just want to get away from you but are way too scared too do so. I couldn't help but lean against the wall, not even caring if Finn was there or not. I once again let my thoughts get the best of me. I fell onto the ground overwhelmed, and crying. "N-N-Noah...? What's wrong?" Finn asked, walking towards me. He knelled by my side, and looked at me, wiping the tears off my face. I continued crying, not even caring about anything anymore. I wished Finn wasn't in here, I just want to die so bad but he is in here making me so I can't do it. "I love you Finn!" I confess to him, still crying. wow, what a dick move. he doesn't like you back. he will hurt you now because of you saying that. he will turn against you. he will team up with troy and beat you up. My thoughts kept coming in, I almost didn't hear what Finn said next, "I like you back Noah... I was scared that you didn't like me back so I kept my secret safe.... I guess some hints got out though." He giggled, showing his dimples which I never realized until now. I always found dimples really adorable so I couldn't help but smile back. "You know, I love your eye colour. I have never seen anything that pretty green." Finn says, looking into my eyes. I couldn't help but blush slightly as he looked into my eyes. "Y-Your eyes are prettier then mine Finn... Mine are just gross, l-like poison ivy..." I say looking into Finn's eyes as well. He shook his head at me and moved my legs. He crawled to where my legs were pressed up against my chest and leaned in for a kiss. Suddenly the door opened and Troy stood their, a look on his face like he meant business. Finn quickly stood up, looking embarrassed and a little confused. I just sat on the ground, waiting for something to happen. Everything seemed to just freeze as nobody was doing anything but staring at each other. I slowly stood up, very confused about what was going on. I slowly walk out of the bathroom, leaving the two people that both like me by themselves. I heard yelling come from what seems like the bathroom, but I went on walking. I didn't feel like dealing with people yelling, it just doesn't go good for me. I break down a lot of the time when people when people even when they aren't yelling at me. I just can't handle it. I walk away, trying not to start crying even more then I already was. I wasn't watching were I was going, so I ended up bumping into Millie. She looked at me, and grabbed my hand, leading me outside. Once we got outside, we sat down on the grass and Millie looked at me, wanting me to explain what is going on. I sigh, a few tears escaping my eyes before I said anything. "R-Remember when Troy asked t-to talk to me..." I choked up, and Millie nodded her head. I went on talking, "W-Well... he force kissed m-me.. his t-t-tongue went into m-my mouth... I didn't want t-to do anything because I didn't w-want him to hurt me anymore, but h-he wo-" I say before Millie interrupted me. "He was french kissing you without your consent?! Oh Noah... I am so sorry..." She said, hugging me close to her. I hug her back, feeling the tears come back to my eyes. I heard somebody walking to us, but I was too sad to see who it was. I had a sudden fear that it was Troy coming to pick on me. "Oh hey Finn." Millie said suddenly, and I look behind me. He looked like my prince in charming coming to save me from this nightmare people call life. "Hey..." Finn said out of breath, and looked like something was bothering him. I look at him and was about to say something when the bell rang, letting us know that it was time for recess. I walk away from Millie and Finn, leaving them alone. I couldn't help but wonder what happened in the bathroom after I left. what if they both like each other? what if they both end up liking each other, and they both are messing me up even more than i already am? My thoughts keep popping up, and I try shutting them out but it didn't work. Tears start streaming down my face, as the bruises I got today and from the all the other bruises my dad gave me. I was just as broken as my dad said I was, and he also said I was never going to be loved because of how I am.