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The sun shines came out earlier but right now they found the perfect angle to hit me right in my eye. Maybe sometime i liked it , but now it is a pain in the ass.

I get up and i walk to bathroom on the cold floor when i realized that my hole room is freezing. I turned my head to my window just to see it's open. Good. I slept all night in cold. I walk to the window and i close it. I go to bathroom to brush my teeth and make a quick shower . After that i get down  hit by a warm wall in comparation wit the weather that is in my room ,and i see Liam with a cup in his hands next to the kitchen cabinet. I say a "hello" to him , but he says just that:

-The cops didn't came.

-Calm down. It's to early for that . What are you drinking?

-Oh, it's just coffee. Nothing special.

-Liam, you are not aloud to drink coffee. You know this . Give it back.

-No! The first time you drink coffee you was 15...

-Yes! And you are 14! So give it back!

He throw the cup in the sink without saying something else and looked at me.

-Liam, i need to tell you something. I said to him letting my voice down. We need to go to Washington .

-Dad put you to say that?Because if he did i am not co...

-No , Liam. Dad don't know about it. I wanna leave him. And i am not gonna let you here. He become a monster. I don't trust him anymore so this is why i want to leave in Washington.

-This is gonna destroy him. How can you be so mean? He is looking at me with his blue eyes like they never known me before, but they came back to reality. When he see the thing that i don't care about our father anymore he gets a little bit relaxed. He hates dad as much as i do. And he don't know everything.  All the love has evaporated .When?And where we gonna stay?

-Next four weeks. And Charley will take care about us until we found another home.
He's eyes are like a big ,endless sea . And right now starts to rain and this is what i hate that much about him. He can make me cry when he wants , without thinking i am sad. My ears get hurt when a cup gets broken. And i realized that my cup made this. I wasn't even touching it , how can i ...

And then i see Liam's face.

-What's wrong i ask him , but he continue starring at something in my back. I try to turn but he puts his hand up saying " don't move " . I got freak out .

-What is going on , Liam?

-Nothig. Just let me alone for an hour or so. I am going in my room. Scream after me if the police come. And he just run on the stairs without even looking at me. I think he has a problem and if we gonna fight to each other this will never end with a happyend. I make somthing to eat until 10:30 and i go in my room. Here is still freezing but i don't care. Right now i am thinking about a way to make Liam feel better cause his feelings are down . And i don't care if that mean to move in another country to find out why.

After two hours the ring sing. I was expecting the be police , because no one visit me and Liam in weekends just if i have some friends to talk but they never come if i don't ask them to. I was surprised to see who is at the door, because that person never talk to me since the "incident" happend. And i hate this person because she never try to talk to me , neither to send a text or something. I would not have answered but she never try to. Maybe she could repair something, but now it's to late.

I closed the door right in her face , and i run in Liam's room. What i learned trough the years is the truth is always better then a lie. But now i don't even know what i am gonna say to him.

-What is the problem? He asks , but i can't talk. I am to surprised and to angry to talk. What is going on? Carter? He talks to me but i am not capable to say something . He is getting up and come in front of me telling something that i can't understand. I need to say something, or he is gonna leave and see her by himself.

-Mom came. And was enough. His face is hardening and he stops moveing around. He just stay.

-You are joking ,no? Tell me , this is a joke.

-No ,it's not.

-I wanna talk to her. Where is she? But he didn't wait and he went downstairs. Where is she? Where is she? Carter! Where is she...

I came down just to see him. A part of him broken by his parents. Broken by his mother. Broken by no love and coverd again and again in pain made by seeing her.

-Liam , you are ok? I ask him, but i know the answer. How can you be ok when your mother appear home after almost five years.

He move his head saying: Promise me we will never fight. Because if i am gonna lose you too i am gonna ... i am gonna go after her and say to her what you didn't.

After a few hours the police came , but they wanted to talk to me about Liam and dad. I lied like i do normally, because if someone will know the truth we will go to an orphanage. They leaved . Stupid cops. They don't ask enough questions to find the truth , but they still wait results . I got away of this and this is the single thing that i ask for. Quiet. I want to sleep without my dad, the police or now my mom in my head.