"Daddy Direction." Sequel

Chapter 5

Zayn's POV 

I've never seen a girl cry so much in my life, never. Emma must have sat and cried in my arms for about 4 hours before crying herself to sleep. She seriously missed him yet she doesn't understand how much Josh wants this baby, he's always spoken to me about having kids. Ever since he played midwife and helped Perrie give birth...he's wanted kids. To share the experience of watching his wife give birth, holding his child in his arms for the first time...if only she knew. In all fairness I seriously don't know why he acted this way, it was not Josh at all. 

Emma began to stir and instantly jumped of the sofa and into the bathroom. I ran after her and held her hair out of the way. Em is throwing her guts up...morning sickness is the only downside to being pregnant. 

"You okay Em?" 

"I think so, thankyou!" I nodded and helped her up. 

"You're welcome, come on...we need to go get a plane back home. We'll go to your Dad's seeing as the lads and Josh will be there..." Emma nodded as she rinced her mouth out with water. She walked out the bathroom and into the hallway of the 2nd floor with her bags slung over her shoulder. I chuckled and shook my head. 

"Pass them here Em..." She didn't refuse, she let the bags slide of her shoulder before she walked towards the lift. 

-2 hours later- 

Sitting next to a hormonal, pregnant women on a plane has it advantages...they are quiet to say the least but constantly crying. I wanted to help her so much but I just didn't know how. Her marriage is falling apart and my world is perfect. I'm in a band, my marriage is perfect and I have a daughter that I adore and hers is just shit and not to mention Simon wants her to do a tour in 5 months...She will be 6 months pregnant for christ sake. How can you expect a women who is scared out her mind do a tour at 6 months? It's stupid. I'm going to have to talk to Simon, see if he can shorten the time she spends on tour or something, I get tired after doing 3 shows and I'm a man who takes care of himself. 

"ZAYN! ZAYN! BRADFORD BAD BOI!" I shook my head to clear my thoughts. How long had she been shouting at me?

"Yes Emma?" I turned to face Em and smiled. 

"You were gorming out...what is wrong with you?" 

"Nothing, I'm fine, just thinking." I smiled once again which she instantly replied to by sending one back. Emma turned back to face out the window. I pulled out my phone and plugged in my headphones, turning to the first piece of music I came to...Ed Sheeran - Small Bump. I always love songs that sum up situations...

Joshua's POV 

"Oh let's just face it, Zayn isn't going to get her to come back, I know Emma...she can be stubborn when she wants to be." I'm beginning to loose the will to live. Zayn promised me that he would get Emma home tonight at the latest, he hasn't text, rung or anything. I began pacing up and down Liam's living room, breathing heavily.

"Josh, would you calm the fuck down. Zayn is doing all he can. Go to bed, the guess room is free...go now. I also believe your old joggers are in there too...go." Yes father. I sighed and walked upstairs. I walked down the hall, in to the guest room where my joggers laid on the bed...I've not seen these since Em wore them over a month ago. I go changed into the joggers and climbed into the bed. I laid there staring at the white ceiling...I couldn't wait to see my child for the first time or too see them on a screen looking like an alien. I can't wait for the restless nights and the screaming cries...I can't wait at all. The way I reacted to Em telling me she was pregnant was just my way of showing I was bottling out and beinig a dick, right now I regret it, I regret it so much. I was the reason why she left. I am the reason why she is a mess...It's all my fault. 

Like hell, it takes 2 people to create a baby and it takes 2 to care for it properly. I really don't want Emma turning out the way Megan did and I want to try to live upto Liam because Liam is the most amazing father I've ever seen. There is no way in God's name I can live upto him. Before I knew it, I felt my eyelids become heavy. They finally closed sending me into a light sleep. 

-5 hours later- 

I felt the bed dip bedside me, bodyheat instantly warming up the bed, a small bump resting lightly in the middle of my back. I couldn't help but smile...Em was back. I peeled open my eyes and turned to face her. Emma's eyes were red and swollen, tears had clearly stained her perfectly rouged cheeks. I placed my hand on her cheek and stroked my thumb back and forth, I set a quick kiss on her forehead before falling back to sleep...

"JOSHUA, GET UP NOW!" I let out a groan before rolling over, forgetting Emma was laid beside me. I quickly moved of Em and sat up. 

"Woah, Haz, shush...You'll wake Emma." Harry clapped a hand over his mouth and chuckled. I got out of bed and pushed him out of the room. "What?" 

"Nothing just letting you know we're going over to Lou's to give you and Emma space...Sort it please Josh. Tell her everything, she needs to hear it from you..." I nodded and sighed. 

"Josh? Uncle Harry?" Emma appeared from the door looking really tired, I walked over to her and pulled her into a hug. Emma hugged me back and giggled. Oh god...how I love it when she giggles...

"I love you Emma, so much you don't even realise it. Don't ever leave me again okay?" Emma nodded and nuzzled her head into my neck. 

"I'm just going to leave you guys, we'll see you later." Harry gave me the 'Get this fucking shit sorted' kind of look before leaving and slamming the front door. Me and Em walked back into the bedroom and sat on the bed, hand in hand. I placed a small kiss on her lips and sighed. 

"Em? I'm going to tell you the honest truth right now because I feel you deserve it and you don't deserve too be treated the way I treated you yesterday. In all fairness you deserve better than me alot better than me but you chose me and I'm glad you did..." I paused and smiled. "Emma, I love you with everything I have and no one understands how much I miss you when you're gone for like an hour. You going on tour kills me, last night I was pacing up and down Liam's living room for about an hour until I got made to go to bed. Loosing you made me realise how much I actually want a child, I want to be there at the scans and the birth, I want to be there when it kicks for the first time, I want to be there to hold my child for the first time, I want to hear it's first word, I want to be it's father and be the best father I can be even if I may not be the best in the world. I'll do anything to make you happy Em...trust me. You are my world and I'm scared to lose you...please don't ever leave me Em..." Tears began to fall from Em's eyes. Shit. I pulled her into a hug and let her cry on my chest. I ran my hand through her silky brown hair and kissed her head. 

"I love you Emma Louis Payne-Smith." 

"I love you more Joshua James Smith..." I let out a single chuckle, pushed Em up into a sitting position and wiped away the tears that had escaped with the pad of my thumb. 

"Hmmm, highly debatable babe..."