My Dangerous Lovers || Akatsuki x Reader Collection

Itachi x Fem!Reader || Gomenasai

Itachi x Fem!Reader || Gomenasai

~
What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl.
~

Your heart pounded hard in your ribcage as you ran through the Uchiha compound. Where is he? you thought as you ran through blood stained streets. A few bodies littered them, poor clan members who'd been brutally cut down without a chance. You'd known for some time that the impending destruction of the Uchiha clan was coming. Your best friends Itachi, and Shisui had been devising plans to hold off the clan's plans to attack the Leaf, but to no success. Eventually Shisui had decided he's use his visual jutsu to stop them, but it seemed as if his plan had failed. Especially since now Itachi's original plan was in action...the slaughter of his entire clan. You took a sharp right down an alley to get closer to the raven haired man's home, only to slam right into someone. You fell to the ground in a heap, before pushing yourself up onto your elbows. Your eyes moved to see the man's face, and they widened in awe. Your lips parted as you stared into the onyx eyes that bore down on you, and seemed to stare into your soul.

"Itachi-kun..."

~
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed.
~

The raven haired man was silent as you stared at him. It was several, long moments before he reached out and helped you to your feet. You swallowed hard before saying softly, "I-Itachi-kun...why? What about Shisu-"
"Shisui is dead (y/n)," he interrupted bluntly. "This was the only way."
"Wh-What...? Shisui..." you breathed softly. "How...?"
"There is no time to explain."
"I deserve to know how my best friend died!"
"Enough, (y/n)!" he shouted as his eyes flashed red with the Sharingan he possessed.
"G-Gomenasai," you stammered after his outburst before adding a few moments later, "What about your brother...?"
"Once this is over...he shall be the last Uchiha left besides myself," answered Itachi. "And he shall grow upon hatred for my actions before he takes my life."
"What!?"
"Silence, (y/n). He must hate me to grow strong and have the same eyes as my own."
"The same eyes...?"

He closed his eyes before opening them and making you gasp. The man's normal Sharingan had changed to what you'd only seen one other possess. It was the Mangekyō Sharingan, the only other user who'd had this was Shisui. This meant... "You watched him die, didn't you...Itachi?" you breathed before Itachi closed his eyes, a single nod confirming your suspicions. You closed your eyes, understanding the man's intentions. Silence enveloped you two again as you pondered what to say. You closed your eyes as you struggled not to cry before the man. "What about me...us?"
"(y/n)..."
"Itachi-kun, I know you know my feelings towards you. So what happens now?"
"Gomenasai, (y/n)-chan. Nothing can happen, I'll be labeled as a rogue ninja...a missing-nin, and I refuse to drag you down with me," he said, and your heart broke at his words.
"I-Itachi-san I-"
"Shush. Don't cry (y/n)-chan. Please, I don't wish to part from you and have this be how I see you last."
"G-Gomenasai..."
"Thank you for everything (y/n)-chan. For being an amazing friend...for loving me. Before I depart, I have one last request of you."
"Anything for you."
"Please watch over my baby brother."
"I will."
"Arigato, (y/n)-chan."

With that, he planted a kiss on your forehead before everything went dark.

~
Gomenasai, for everything.
Gomenasai, I know I let you down.
Gomenasai till the end,
I never needed a friend
Like I do now...
~

You bolted upright, eyes darting around. You'd been asleep, but something had awoken you from your slumber. You looked around the room before rising from your warm bed reluctantly. You stepped out into the hallway and glanced around before heading to Sasuke's room. "Sasuke?" you called as you pushed open the door.

Your eyes went as wide as moons, before you turned and printed out of the house you two shared in the Uchiha compound. No! Not again! you thought as you ran through the compound. You shouted the young Uchiha's name, memories of the night of the massacre flashing through your mind. Eventually, after searching the whole compound, you were too exhausted to keep running around looking for the boy. You fell onto your hands and knees, tears dripping onto the ground. "Gomenasai, Itachi-san. I have failed your only wish..."

~
What I thought wasn't
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain
~

You sat against a tree as you stared into the waters of the lake before you. You'd failed. Sasuke was gone. He'd been gone for a month now. Gone just like how he was gone. How he'd walked out of your life so casually without a second glance. You blankly watched the small ripples in the water, unaware someone watched you.

The raven haired man observed you from afar. His onyx eyes studied you with a curiosity in their dark pools. However, laced within was hidden emotions of fondness and pity. Fondness for how beautiful, strong and attractive you'd become, as well as how much you'd grown. Pity for how you blamed yourself for Sasuke leaving when he'd simply chosen his own path, and you feeling like you were a failure to Itachi. However, this was far from the case. He wished to go and comfort you, to pull you into his arms and murmur in your ear how proud he was of you, how much he cared for you. Unfortunately, he knew this was impossible at this point. You were like a doll made of porcelain, so fragile. You'd lost everything. Your best friend, the man you'd fallen in love with, and the boy whom you'd promised to protect. He felt like anything more could shatter your fragile existence. "Gomenasai, (y/n)," he murmured before he turned away to find his partner.

~
When I wanted to call you,
And ask you for help...
I stopped myself.
~

It was a few days later you were walking the empty streets of the Uchiha compound. You were the only one who dared venture here since the Leaf ninja wanted to forget the incident, and both brothers had gone their own way in the world. Your feet took you into their home, moving through to the room where the elder of the two had slain his parents. You quietly sat in the middle of the room where the two parents had fallen before. Stains still lay upon the old wooden floor from that night. You closed your dull eyes, relaxing as you silently prayed forgiveness for not upholding your promise.

Meanwhile, the cloaked man silently entered the room. He'd been observing your routine for a while now and was tired of seeing the pain you were enduring. You felt a presence behind you, before a sharp blade of the kunai was against your throat. Your breath hitched slightly as the man placed his left palm to your temple before pulling the back of your head to his chest. Your eyes wandered to try to see his face, but to no avail with his hand slightly shielding your eyes from the sight. You accepted your fate of being killed by an assailant you'd never see the face of. "Do it," you whispered and felt him tense against you. "End my life, please. You'd be doing me a favor."
"Stop it," said that all too familiar voice. "You're not a failure, (y/n). You did as I asked, and I thank you for doing what you could for my younger brother. So please, be happy again...don't throw away your life."
"Itachi-kun..."
"Please."

~
Gomenasai for everything.
Gomenasai, I know I let you down.
Gomenasai till the end,
I never needed a friend...
Like I do now
~

You pulled away slightly as he lowered the blade to look at the elder Uchiha. He looked just as he had when he'd left that night, except for his clothes and the tears that streamed down his cheeks. Your eyes widened at the sight and you quickly went to wipe them away. "Itachi-kun...don't cry," you breathed as you wiped away the streaks on his face that the tears had left. "Then please, be happy again...live," he replied, and you nodded. You were about to hug him when you noted the cloak he wore donned the red clouds that struck fear into you, causing you to flinch away. His eyes watched with concern and confusion until understanding crossed them. "So it's true...the rumors...what Sasuke said when he was telling me of that blue-skinned man, and yourself showing up that one day and confronting Naruto." You said softly. "You joined the Akatsuki."
"For the sake of the Leaf, yes," he replied which only slightly put you at ease.
"What about your partner?"
"Kisame is far from here, you need not worry."
"If you say so..."
"Besides that...please promise me you will no longer blame yourself and be happy."
"I promise."
"Thank you, (y/n). Now, there is something I need to say..."
"What is it, Itachi?"

~
What I thought was a dream.
An illusion.
Was as real as it seemed.
A privilege.
~

He leaned in as he pulled you closer to him, eyes closing as he did. You froze as his soft lips pressed to yours. They were as smooth as silk, and you could smell the scent of the forest on him, that musky scent of the leaves and grass. You closed your eyes as you sank into his touch, and you felt his arm slide around your shoulders, and his other hand grasped your thigh. He moved you into his lap with ease as his head tilted to the side further to deepen the kiss. The kiss ended within moments, the Uchiha pulling away from you and watching you with unreadable eyes. "Am I dreaming...?" you whispered after a few moments.
"Far from."
"Itachi-kun..."
"(y/n), I love you."
"This is...so sudden. Are you certain?"
"Have I ever lied to you?"
"No."
"So do you think I would now?"
"No."
"Then, I'd hope you'd believe me when I say how I feel for you."
"I believe you."
"Then I have a question to ask you once more..."

~
When I wanted to tell you,
I made a mistake...
I walked away
~

It had been some time since that day, and you were resting in the room you shared with Itachi in the Akatsuki hideout. You laid on the bed with one of his cloak's covering you as you read a book. You sighed, putting aside the book after a bit, deciding to get ready for bed since it was growing late. As you got up and started changing, you pondered where the man you loved was at. He was supposed to be back from his mission hours ago. You let out a huff, knowing Leader-sama was probably making him report to him every damn detail about the mission. You shook your head, going to prepare for your night of rest.

--

A soft movement awoke you, and you looked over to see a raven haired male joining you. You gave a lazy smile with drowsy eyes. "Finally..."you murmured. "Took you long enough." He gave a small smile in return, kissing your cheek gently. "Sorry, Leader-sama wanted to speak with Kisame, and myself," he said.
"I figured as much," you yawned and noticed he was frowning now. "Is something wrong?"
"N-No not at all," he said, but deep down there was something going in the Uchiha's mind.
"Are you sure?" you asked.
"Would I lie to you?" he asked as he thought, Should I tell her of my illness...? Of how soon the time is coming with Sasuke?
"No."
"Exactly, now get some rest," he assured, deciding against it and getting comfortable before you two fell asleep.

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Gomenasai, for everything.
Gomenasai, Gomenasai.
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now.
~

You moved swiftly through the forest, eyes wide as you ran towards the place you knew he'd gone to. He can't die! Not now! you thought as you jumped through the trees. Itachi had gone to meet Sasuke, leaving a note saying how much he loved you and regretted being unable to remain at your side. Tears welled up in your eyes as you ran, heart pounding in your chest. Don't leave me! you thought as you grew closer to your destination.

~
Gomenasai, I let you down.
Gomenasai, Gomenasai,
Gomenasai till the end,
I never needed a friend...
Like I do now...
~

When you arrived, you were met with a sight you wished you'd never seen. Itachi slowly moving towards Sasuke who'd grown much stronger and was far from when you'd last seen him as a young child. His movements were unsteady, and you could tell he was on his last few moments of life. "Itachi-kun..."you whispered as he reached out towards the younger Uchiha. He paused momentarily to say something, a smile gracing his lips before he poked Sasuke's forehead. A moment later, his forehead hit the wall behind him and he fell to the ground. A few moment later as rain began to fall, Sasuke fell beside him, going unconscious from exhaustion. You felt numb as you moved forward to get to the elder Uchiha.

As you landed beside him, you slowly got on your knees, eyes filling with tears. You were silent as you closed his eyes before fixing his messy strands of hair. You then pulled him up into your lap, caressing his cheek with your right hand. You could feel the warmth leaving his body as tears dropped into the Uchiha's face. "Come back...Itachi please..."you whimpered and held him closer to you in an attempt to somehow bring him back to you. You gritted your teeth, tears mixing with the blood and water that had smeared onto you from Itachi's body. You suddenly threw your head back, screaming your lover's name at the top of your lungs. As you did, you swore you heard his voice in your head.

"Gomenasai, (y/n)-chan...Aishiteru."