Young, Stupid and Confused

Hell... A.K.A School

I wake up from the sunlight entering through my window shining right onto my face.
I had forgotten to shut my curtains before I had went to bed.
I refuse to get out of bed to get ready for school. So I lay there for a good hour waiting for my alarm to go off.
Meanwhile as I wait I just stay still looking up at the ceiling and thinking just about anything.
After that hour of thinking my alarm finally goes off.
I moan of struggle still not wanting to get out of bed to go to hell A.K.A School.
I throw my blanket off me I had slept with last night while I was freezing cold, and never thought to put on my thickest cover.

I then pull up my body and wipe the sleep out of my eyes.
I stay there for a least 3 minutes.
I stand up debating if I should have a shower... Nahhh!
I walk toward my wardrobe and pull out a pair of ripped jeans and a plain blue tee, and a clean black bra.

I walk back to my bed and throw my clothes on my bed. I then take off my shirt I had slept in.
I go to pick up my bra and put it on. I struggle to clip it, but in the end managed.

I spay deodorant under my arms.
Then continue to get dressed.
After I finished putting on my clothes, I grab my pair of black vans, grab my bag, check the time 7:35am.

I walk downstairs and straight out the door.
No one was home of course.
Mum and dad's relationship sucks, dads having an affair, mums an alcoholic and my sister who is 13 has no clue, and looks up to me way to much I'm always there for her. Mum and dad need to pull there heads in.

I stop thinking about my family, and text my good friend Alex to pick me up. She's always there for me and knows all my deepest darkest secrets.
I wait a least 10 minutes, before she picked me up.
I hop in and we drive off to go to Hell... A.K.A School.

Alex looks at me, then my feet. Then Laughs at me.
"What?"
"Ummm... where's your shoes? Forgotten them? Knew you were too good for them?"
I pause... then laugh and play along while I pull out the vans I had grabbed on my way out.
"Yeah, shoes are just not good enough for me... you know? They always hold me back."
We both giggle.
I start to put on my shoes.

She asks me how things are between Theo and I.
I stay quite for a while. She asks again.
"I don't know? It's complicated"
"Aren't they always?"
"What's that supposed to mean Alex?"
"You know?"
"No I don't, please explain"
I cross my arms. Things are quite again. She finally replies.
"Let's not fight, I'm sorry I bought it up... but I'm always an open ear."
I look at her, and she looks at me. I uncross my arms and we both smile at each other.

She asks me out of the bloom, if I can try sneak out tonight to go to a party with her and a couple of friends.

"Noooo! I'll get in shit again."
"Awww, come on Hazel, you know you want too!"
"No, I truly can't"
"Theeeo can come along..."
I look at her and grin, then look to the ground and mutter fine.
"YESS! I knew you would"
"I'll try okay."
"I'll pick you at 10, be ready."
"Yep..."

We pull into the street of our school.
At the same time we moan... Hell A.K.A School.
Alex parks the car. We both get out, shut the door. She locks it. We continue to make our way down the street to go into the Gates Of Hell, A.K.A School.

I start kicking dirt in the air behind Alex. She moans to stop while giggling. I smile as she turns around, and then stop. We continue to walk to Hell A.K.A School.

When we are just about to enter the gates, I hear someone calling my name. I turn around and look around to try and find the person yelling my name. I don't see them, so I turn around and continue to walk forwards suddenly I feel someone's hands gently yet suddenly grab around my waist. I slightly jump, and turn around. It's Theo.

He smiles at me and looks at my lips, I do the exact same thing. We both lean in and give each other a gentle kiss.

Alex laughs... we stop.

Theo whispers in my ear.
"Meet me at our secret place at first break... okay? ."
"Okay"
He walks away, sliding his hands out from my waist. I feel cold and lost.
I stop thinking about Theo, not everything is about him. I stop thinking again and quickly catch up to Alex.

"Ooooooo"
I roll my eyes. Alex giggles.
"Did you ask him?"
I look at her, then the floor.
"No"
"Awww, come on Hazel!"
"What?"
"You know"
"Yeah... and?"
"The pair of you need to grow a pair of balls, and stop fucking around."

I look at the ground and don't say anything in return. I just continue to follow her to class.