Entry #3
1/31/14
3:22 PM
I don't know what to think anymore. My life isn't what I want it to be. I'm stuck in the state of mind of being a loner and I don't wanna be like that anymore.
I don't know how to be happy any more. My boyfriend broke up with me this morning and i just can't stop crying on and off all day. My sister Crystal has been missing for a week now and I fear the worst for her.
I don't wanna think on the negative side but sometimes its just so difficult. Why do I always feel so alone and sad on the inside? Will I ever truly be happy? These questions always flow through my head like water. Continuesly running in my mind. Never stopping until i have gotten to the point where I think i have gone mad thinking about it all.
I want my sister to be found a brought home where she belongs. I want my life to be better then it truly is. I wanna be happy like everyone else seems to be. But is that evern possible? Are these things I want or even think or ever gonna become reality?
I used to self harm myself because I thought that would help my situations but it didn't. So I stopped. I still think about doing it everynow and then but I know that it wont help anything. I know that you can't get what you want in life my harming yourself.
To get what you want in life you have to work hard and earn it. You have to put forth the effort to get as far in life as you want to. You can't just wake up and be where you want in life. You have to work for it. Work hard and you will get there with time.
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Me And My Life As It Is
Non-FictionI'm not gonna complain but my life could be a little better then it is now. Not many poeple know me or know the real me so I guess now is the time for me to let everyone know who I am. This isn't really much of a story its more like an open diary of...
