Solitude

Solitude III

Solitude

[Chapter 3]

Raiyne Scarlett Taini

January 25 : Continued...

One.
Two.
Three.
Several, at a time they came.

All of them with one thing on their minds, not stopping for half a second to think about what or who they were doing.

When It initially began, I was strapped down to a bare bed with several layers of tape to seal my hollers that would escape the lips.
As time went on and the threats became more severe, I learned that I was "Upgrading" and that I was to perform tasks back but I begged and pleaded and begged and pleaded and begged and pleaded.

Every damn day.
Before.
After.
During.

I was tied so that I was in the position desired.

Once I bit down on one and the thing released a very loud noise, that night not ending well.
Then...
Never mind, I' rather not disturb you with my twisted life.
•••
My eyes tightened and my body turned as the warning but harmful rays of the bright star shown through a 'window' in the wall.

I pulled the thin covers over my head in attempt to get in any type of rest with the little bit of rest that I would be eligible to have before the breakfast whistle blew.
"Gambori" I raised my eyebrow.

"What?"

"Your counselor would like to see you"
I didn't mind this one, he was 'alright' , so far, in my books.

"For what?"
He sighed before saying, "Just be down there within the next 15 minutes"

I too sighed as I rolled over and thunder erupted in my head. I was tired of being here but again, it was  'My Fault'.
•••
On my journey to my counselor's office, I spotted someone that I knew from way back when.
I wonder if he remembers me, oh dear Lord! I hope he doesn't.
I quickly put my head down and tried to move even faster, but I soon got into something hard. I looked up and an almost silent "sh*t" left my mouth.
"Watch where the f*ck you're going bitch!"

"Who the f*ck you calling a bitch"

The guard that came to get me from my cell quickly became a barrier and said, "She's sorry" . I wasn't but I didn't say anything 'cause I didn't want to cause any more 'trouble', but that all changed when I heard him say "These dumb ass black bitches". I let out a loud chuckle and said "cunt".

When I looked back into the direction I saw 'him' pass, he was staring right back at me. I've never felt pain like I did as I snapped by head forward.

As the door to the counselor's office opened, my face turned red, my ears blew steam, and my entire body ached.

He turned to face the door, smiled and said "short time no see"

I closed my eyes as the scene replayed in my head for the millionth time.

•••
It was day four thousand nine hundred and ninety-eight and I didn't think anything worst could have happened to me. There was no way. I saw them. I saw them. He came in behind them with the cheshire cat look on his face.
He watched as I screamed for them to stop. I begged. There was already blood spilling from my wounds and He laughed and walked away. That night they did everything to me, which included taking the ounce of feeling I had in my body. I became who I am today on that night, a stone cold hearted angry woman.

•••

I was recollecting one moment and In chains the next. I had attempted to kill that motherfucker for the tenth time and every time someone is there to prevent it but one thing I promise, He will die.

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