Extraterrestrial Moors

14

Maha breaks down crying once the other two leave. She still won't let me touch her. I sigh and go to leave as well.

"I'm sorry Rafe, that you're stuck with the freak." Her words stop me short and I fill with anger.

Knowing that I can get into some serious trouble for what I'm about to do, I do it anyway. I go up and grab her and pull her to me and kiss her hard. I have an immediate reaction to being near her like I am.

I pull off her shirt and start kissing her like I had earlier. She starts moaning as I take her nipple in my mouth. She finally starts to react to my touch and kiss. As she does so I become gentler and my touch not only incites but soothes what I might have hurt before. Her legs go around my waist as I lay her down.

I find enough strength to pull away. "Don't ever call yourself a freak again Maha. You are one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen. Now get dressed," I toss her her shirt.

She makes a noise of distress, and I turn back to her, "if you wish we can go back to your room and finish this. But I was given an order to move into your room so I need to clear out mine."

It won't take me long. I haven't collected much along this deployment. Mostly my uniforms and some other clothing articles.

I will make sure to pack protection as well. We might not finish what we started tonight, but we will soon. I hurt just thinking about it.

I wonder how often he's been like this. It seems like he can just turn it on and turn it off. I wonder how many times it will take me before I can be like him. I ache I want him so bad. I feel like such a whore. I've known him for so little time, I'm not sure how long now. Time has gotten messed up once I was brought on board. But it couldn't be more than a month or two.

He's like a drug to me as well. One that I can't get enough of. I wonder in excitement what it will feel like if he ever allows us to go all the way. Then I wonder if he'll still want to be near me afterwards.

There had been many in school, that once they got the girl to have sex with them they weren't interested in her anymore.

At school I had been called whore and slut and I never understood why. I've never been with anyone. But then bullies don't need reasons to bully do they? Remembering what they did makes me cry. Even knowing that they are dead doesn't make things any easier.

"Maha?" Rafe says in alarm and he pulls me unresisting into his arms.

"Should I take you to the CO so you can file a complaint against me?" Rafe's heart is beating rapidly. I push against his hold and look at him in confusion.

"Why would I want to do that?"

"I forced my kisses on you. I took your shirt off and touched you without permission, should I go on?" Rafe asks his voice rough with pain.

I shake my head, "These tears are for memories Rafe, nothing you or your people did."

He holds me tenderly and strokes my hair, "What did they do to you Maha?"

"I was bullied the entire time I was in school. By the time I was in high school they more or less left off with the physical punishments, but they called me whore and slut and gave me all kinds of suggestions. Guys would come up to me and touch me without permission. I hated school so bad, Rafe." I give in and start crying. It felt good to have Rafe hold me close and rub my back as I let out all my tears.

Once I calm down he hands me some tissue to blow my nose and clean my face. He looks at me with so much concern it near breaks my heart.

He holds my face so I can't hide from him, "Are you okay?" I nod, "are you okay with me moving into your room?" That one I'm not so sure about, but I don't think the Commander will care if I don't like it. "It's okay, we don't have to share a bed."

"No, that's not why I'm hesitant. I actually feel better when you hold me."

"Then what is it? I won't hurt you." Rafe is almost desperate for me to know that.

I place my hands on his, "I know that Rafe. You would never intentionally hurt me. I just don't trust very easily. Everything is happening so fast. We, whatever is going on between us, is happening so fast."

"We can take it slower if you want. Tell me what you want me to do, Maha, if you don't say anything I'll end up hurting you and I don't want that."

"We've been given a green light..."

"I'm not entirely sure what that means, Maha, but I'm not going to force you into anything. You know I want you," he waits for me to nod. "That isn't going to change. But neither does it mean you have to want me back. It won't be the first time," he shrugs, but somehow I think our situation is different.

We leave the infirmary behind. Maha doesn't want to be left alone in her room so comes with me as I pack up my things. Thankfully my roommates aren't in so we don't have to hear any rude or nasty comments. I'm sure by now my new posting has spread throughout the ship.

As I suspected it doesn't take me long to toss my things into my duffel. Before I toss in the protection I check to see how many are left. I'll need to pick up a new box at the store soon. I don't even know if our DNA is compatible and if I even need to worry about it, but better safe than sorry I suppose.

We get back to Maha's room shortly before dinner and she moves her new clothes over to make room for my things.

Once I am done unpacking it's almost time for dinner. So I ask her if she wants to have something sent here or go to the cafeteria. "If we go to the cafeteria there's bound to be even worse rumors than what happened earlier." I warn her and she just shrugs. That's right, she said that the kids at her school called her a whore and a slut already. I'm not really worried about her reaction, I'm more worried about mine.

When it comes to her, I don't have a whole lot of self control. I've gotten into more than one fight about her already.

"If we don't go, the rumors will just get worse. There's no stopping those that want to say nasty things about others. Small minded people will always talk about others."

Her words make me laugh. The ship is full of small minded people. I just have never put it together like she just did.

Before we leave there's a knock at her door. The enlisted man hands me a cot and some bedding. I thank him and put the cot up and make the bed so to speak. The cot is better than the floor but not as nice as the bed.

"You're not sleeping on that are you?" Maha asks aghast at the cot, how narrow, and short and hard it is. It will fit me, but just barely.

"It's either this or the floor unless you invite me to your bed Maha. And as bad as it looks it is better than the floor."

Maha didn't say anything. Well I had hoped that she would give me the invitation then and there, but when she didn't I just sigh. "Come on let's get some food in us." I have a feeling it's going to be a long night.