The Day We Said Goodbye

Chapter 1

Things became so much inconvenient for us. The situation isn’t working. We are being upheld. But are these things worth for your goodbye? Are they worth it enough for you to break your promise? Seeing things that are happening now seems like my heart is being pounded and sliced little by little. One question that is in my mind right now is what did I do to make you do this to me?

I can still remember your promise that we will be together until the end. But now, where is that promise? Are all promises made to be broken?

You are committed, I am alone. You are living in the present while I’m left here in the past. It’s been two years since the day we said goodbye, but I can still remember the words that you said that painful evening.

*Flashback*

It was a mid-October day when you called me and said that we will meet in the evening to discuss something really important. I thought it was regarding our situation or your birthday. I never did imagined that that night will be the worst night of my life.

The weather was cold and the clouds seem to say that they will release their burden anytime, but neither one of them prevented me from seeing you. I waited for you at our favorite restaurant for an hour. I was slowly lacking my hope that you will come, but then you appeared emotionless. You invited me to take a walk in the garden. The welcoming breeze of the holiday season came rushing. The flowers and plants look like they are hiding from something that will cause their death.

We walked silently. I am nervously waiting for you to open a conversation. After a few minutes of silence,

“Let’s end this” Did he just said end? Those words do also mean break up?

“What should we end?” I asked clueless.

“Don’t act dumb” you answered coldly. Your voice was colder than the weather.

“Why?” That’s all that I can manage to say without breaking out. I turned backwards so that you will not see the tears in my eyes.

“This isn’t working.” Really! Why didn’t I notice it?

“We are perfectly fine. I have my work, you have yours. We see each other in free time. We call each other every night. So what’s not working?”

“I am not happy anymore.” So am I not enough to make him happy?

“Did you find someone else? Is she the one they are talking about? Is she really worth it enough for us to end our almost 3-year relationship?”

“Yes.”

“What’s with her that I don’t have? Am I really this useless?”

“You are never useless. Maybe there are things that are not really meant to be. Just like us. Maybe our relationship lasted for years but that doesn’t mean that we are meant to be.”

“What can I do? You have already decided. There is no sense in fighting for someone who can’t fight for you. I just hope that you will be happy.”

“Goodbye Lee thanks for the memories. I hope you will always find a place in your heart for me, my bestfriend.”

“Sure Sam! Goodbye bestfriend. I hope you find the love of your life just like I found mine.”

*End of Flashback*

Yeah, you read it right. He is my bestfriend before we decided to take our relationship higher. You know what; I am always thinking that what if we didn’t take the risk, maybe we are as happy as before now.