It's Complicated

I Need You

Maya's POV

I keep to myself for the next few days. Lucas has Rion and it kills me to not have him but it's better this way. My mom comes in once in awhile to check on me.

"You okay, baby girl? Do you need anything?"

"No. I'm okay." I say.

"I have to go to work but text me if you need anything." She says. I nod and she kisses me on the head then leaves.

I pick my phone up for the first time in a few days and plug it in. The screen comes to life and I cringe at how many people have texted and called.

Honey (56)
Honey Called (26)
Farkle (22)
Farkle Called (17)
Zay (39)
Zay Called (12)
Huckleberry (85)
Huckleberry Called (32)

I don't answer or even look at any of them. I turn my phone off again and turn the tv on. Of course nothing is on so I'm left to watch My Girl. By the end of the movie I'm crying so hard I don't know whether it's because of the movie or because of the fight.

I suddenly stop everything. I stop the movie and know exactly what to do. I start looking for boxes. I'm piling everything into the boxes. What am I doing? I'm packing. I don't even look to see if it made it in the box. I'm throwing everything in my closet and on my desk in the boxes as fast as I can.

"Maya? What are you doing?" I look up to see Riley.

"I'm packing."

"What! No!" She exclaims. She attempts to stop me but I push her away.

"Yes. I'm packing. I'm leaving."

"You just got back! You can't leave. What about Ri? What about Lucas?"

"Lucas can take care of him. He's very capable." I say while throwing my pjs in.

"Maya, stop. You can't leave. You can't keep running."

"That's all I know!" I yell as I put my hands in the air and let them drop. "I've only known that. Everybody leaves and I'm left to pick up my own pieces. Maybe if I leave that won't happen anymore."

"Maya, I would never leave you. Farkle and Zay would never leave you. Lucas would never leave you. Ever."

"I've messed everything up. I need to do this." I whisper. Riley sits and thinks for a moment. She has a sad look in her eye.

"Fine. Then I'll help you." She says as she begins to fold my clothes up neatly. "Could you do me a favor though?"

"Of course." I say even though I don't want to. I already know what she's going to say.

"Go see Lucas. At least tell him and if not for him do it for Rion."

"Okay. I will."

It takes Riley and me around 2 hours to pack all my stuff. When Riley leaves I'm finishing packing up a box with Rion's things and all the things Lucas left. I quickly head to my car with their stuff and drive over.

When I reach Lucas' she place I have to pause. I'm nervous. So many things can happen and I don't know what I'm going to do or say. I take a deep breath and head up to his apartment.

I nervously take an agonizingly long elevator ride up to the 5 floor. I knock and wait but there's no answer. I keep knocking.

"Lucas? Are you there?" I call. I'm about to leave when I hear footsteps behind me.

"Maya?" I freeze and turn around. Lucas stands there in shock. "What are you doing here? Why haven't you answered any of my calls or texts?" He looks genuinely hurt and it kills me. He holds Rion and I almost lose it when I see him.

"We need to talk." I say.

"Ya. Okay."

"Can we go in?"

"Of course." He says opening the door. We head up to his room. Me with the boxes and him with Orion. "What's in the boxes?"

I sigh and bite my lip."Like I said I wanted to talk to you."

"I know. I've been wanting to talk to you. Maya, I am so so sorry about-"

"Stop." I interrupt him. "I need you to listen to me because what I have to say is not easy and I know you are going to hate me when I say what I have to say."

"Maya, what's going on and what's in the boxes." Lucas asks as he lays Rion down in his crib.

"This is all your stuff that you've ever left at my house and this is all of Rion's things." I say putting the boxes down in front of him.

"What about your house? What's at your house. This seems to be all of it." He pauses and looks up at me. "Maya..."

"I've never had anyone here for me besides Riley. She was always there for me. It was me and her taking on the world. Then we met you and you messed everything up and I was by myself. Skip ahead to the ski lodge and we did some stuff and then you made your choice. Everything, New Years and Texas, everything was thrown out the window and I was forgotten. Then I found out I was pregnant and my whole life turned upside down. You were right..."

"Maya-"

"I am a terrible mother. I push people away and leave but I've only ever known that. Leaving is all I know. So, I'm leaving." I say.

"Maya, what about Rion? I can't do this by myself."

"Lucas, you are an amazing father. You'll do great." I say as a tear falls down my face.

"Maya, please. I can't do this without you and it's not true. You are an amazing mother and I'm glad Ri has someone like you to take care of him." Lucas says. He walks up to me and I move back.

"I just screw everything up." I whisper.

"Maya, please. Stay. Stay with me if you have to just don't leave!" He exclaims.

"Lucas..."

"Maya Penelope Hart, please don't go. Don't leave. Rion needs you." He says quietly lifting my face up so he can meet my eyes. "I need you." And I'm totally gone. I'm lost in his green eyes and everything comes flooding back. I'm so in love with this boy that I hate him.

I completely lose it and fall into his arms sobbing. He holds me close and doesn't say anything. He lets me cry. Every emotion and hardship and loss goes into these tears and it feels like I can't stop. I hurt and he's the only one that can make me feel better.