Misunderstood

Second Day Of School

I walked into school and everyone was looking at me like I was a walking toco or something but that was normal. What wasn't normal was being called over by yet again grace. She was really happy to see me and it made me a bit sick how cheerful she was but oh well she was happy at least. Anyway her smile was contagious because i started to smile as well after talking for a bit with her. It's weird to smile i don't do it often but I was and it was weird and I think the other kids though so too because they looks really surprised by me actually smiling . The bell rang and me and grace had to part ways and go to our first periods so I went to math. When I walked in I totally forgot that I sat next to Brandon in class now. When I saw him it kind of hurt. I guess i hoped he was different from the others and wasn't just making a joke out of my depression but I guess I was wrong.

Brandon's POV
I've never seen her smile. Not once and I've known her since  kindergarten. She had a beautiful smile. Not faked or to big just a nice regular smile. It was beautiful. STOP BRANDON STOP THINKING LIKE THAT!!! I thought to myself as I looked around the room and saw Lilly looking at me. She had a bit of tears in her eyes and looked really, really sad. Yes I figured out she had depression when I saw her sketch book. I know all the other kids would talk about her being depressed and all but I didn't know she really was. Until now and I realized that me bullying her was probably one of the reasons. I'm so stupid why was I bullying her just to look cool in front of my friends. It's not even cool to bully, it's mean. But now that I see it. Her in her panic at the disco sort sleeve shirt, I see the scars running up her arms, lots of scars and how she's always lonely and sad looking. She never smiles because there's no reason to. She walks over and sits down. Hi I say. Hey she mumbles back. I'm sorry about yesterday. I say. It's fine I'm used to it. She.... she's use to it? This happens often. Who would hurt such a fragile, broken girl? Or are they the reason for her being fragile and broken. You shouldn't be use to it. I whisper back. She looks at me with a questionable look. Why you did the exact same thing. No I am not playing with your feelings Lilly. I'm not that kind of person. Really, so your not the kind of guy to do that but you'll look through a girls personal sketch book/ journal without permission right in front of them. She says angrily back.I didn't want to my friends wanted me to. I say. But you choose your friends and listened to them. She says. I was silent. I did choose to be friends with a bunch of dick heads and listen to them. Why? See it's your fault. She says back and looks forward to see the math work on the board. I have been a jerk and I am probably the reason she's so broken and fragile. I choose this path but why? I realize now. She was right.