Misunderstood

school day beginning

I was on my way to my first period, Math. Oh joy, Math. Lilly though. As she walked in she was shoved over by no other than the asshat Brandon. Well he was only an asshat around his friends. Once they had to work on a project in language. Just us two and he was actually nice but with his friends, he changes. Anyway. Brand shoved me over. "Watch it Lynn".He says. He can't say my last name in such a asshole way. What ever asshat. He just glared and walked away. He was nice to everyone but me. Whats his problem. Does he just feel the need to bully depressed kids. I don't know. Anyway. We got a sighed seats and you want to know whats worse. I was RIGHT next to him. The way the desks worked it was two desks together and then a space to walk through. The second the teacher said i was next to him i almost chocked on air. Math just got a whole lot worse. When the teacher was going over all the stuff we new last year i was just drawing. Im not going to brag but i was awsome at drawing and liked it actually. I was drawing when i looked up because i felt like I was being watched. And i was, by branden. He was watching me draw. I looked at him dead in the eyes. To show him i noticed him watching me drawing. He looked up at me and mumbled an apology and right after the bell rang to go to my next period, Science. I liked science i didn't mind it. I walked in and saw the teacher at her desk. She let us choose our seats so i sat alone in the back corner when one of the new kids sat next to me. She looked at me and smiled i gave her a questionable look. I was surprised and shocked. Does someone actually want to sit next to me? My mind quickly came up with an excuse. She probably doesn't have any other place to sit or she doesn't know who i am yet or my reputation here. She looked at me with a smile. You looked lonely. Hi im grace. She said. Is this a joke? I questioned i don't want to get hurt by one of the popular girls playing another sick joke on me again. She look at me a bit sad. No. You just looked sad and lonely so i wanted to cheer you up. Ok. I said blankly. I just looked forward and got lost in thoght till the bell rang. I got up and walked out. I got to my last class before lunch, language. We had to right about our lifes so i made sure to let him know who i am and what im like sad, depressed and lonely . that always does the trick to get people to stay way and that grace girl, when she hears about my life she will leave too. Thats what they all do. The bell rang. I wran to my locker, got my phone and earbuds and sketch book and pen and left for lunch and recess. When i got to lunch. I walked to my normal lonely table. I looked at every one with their food. You dont deserve food your worthless. My mind said. I just agreed and plugged in my earbuds and hoped to bloke out the mean voices in my head. Soon lunch was over and we went to recess. I walked to my normal lonely spot, at my tree. I jusg sat down and started drawing in my sketch book and wrighting poems about how i hate my life and just want to die. The usaral. When Branden and his asshat gang walkes up to me and ripped my sketch book out of my hand and Brandon started looking through it as his gang just laughed behind him. It was all laughs at first for him but his smile faltered just a small bit. He must have got to the ones where i wrote all i want to do is die one hundred times. He gave me a slightly sad look but then looked to his buddys. Theres nothing intresting here boys lets go. They started walking away but i saw him slightly look back at me with a sad look for a second then looked away. He must have heard i had depression why look so surprised. Did he not know it was this bad. Was he starting to see what my mind was telling me everyday.